strumphyy

Tonight I reread some of my old posts. Looking at myself now, I realize how much i changed. How much I lost..and yes, how regrets have piled up..But I also realize that some things are still the...

Since the breakup everything has been spiraling downwards. The separation was sad, so was our story but those are in the past. It's what happens afterward that is really precarious and so unlike what...

I feel terrible. It's 4:30 am and I've just had a rigid nasal endoscopy.Last night, while I was eating my oat cereals, I sneezed and instantly it crossed my mind that a flake might have got stuck...

Now there's WoW

I haven't been online here for quite a while. The main reason I was here in the first place, the break up, has faded into forgetfulness..But I miss the people here, so I'm back..I read AJ's entry...

My dad hates the mess in my room. I know it. he has an obsession with tidiness. Three years ago,he used his savings to refurbish the house, to make his dream come true.Now, the trouble is, I am very...

My friends encourage me. Everytime I mention him, they will snap me out of it, they will remind me I have a new life and that maybe I am better off without him.But, I just want to tell someone I miss...

I can't sleep without my ear pluggs and yet my mother hides them away from me and then pretends she knows nothing about it. I feel like a crazy person who doesn't know where her stuff is. 

  I guess I kinda got used to being lonely. I was at peace with myself.But last night I listened to Dire Straits. Life just came back to me. The heartache, the feelings. i felt alive. Well,...

The yahoo messenger is like a bag of memories, faces, answers. The messenger list seems like a tidy notebook where a great part of my past is indexed under tiny names. I was scrolling though the...

I have done something wrong and stupid again...Somebody really close in my family died..It's hard to talk about it..But I went to a party and laughed and had fun...the day before the funeralAWFUL!! I...

Today i killed a big bug unintentionally. I was rushing to the pharmacy, and squashed it with my foot. I am sorry about it.Then I made a stupid joke with my friend on the phone over the war in...

My ex bf wasn't perfect. Neither was I. In fact, watching myself I wonder how can a person will ever be able to put up with me or not get annoyed. I have issues, I am annoying, and I am boring.My...

So I sent him a message. "how are you?". Simple as that. Well, the truth behind this message was more pathetic. I was still hoping, can you believe this? i was hoping he might still have feelings, I...