I had almost done it

  I guess I kinda got used to being lonely. I was at peace with myself.But last night I listened to Dire Straits. Life just came back to me. The heartache, the feelings. i felt alive. Well, sad..But I wasn't numb anymore. Not that I am crazy about this feeling. I was maybe more productive and happier in my state of utter indifference towards feeling. But now, I really want to be happy and maybe love again.  Not immediately, not this month or year..But i am hoping one day..