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Well I met with Mike over the weekend, and it was awesome!  Hmmm........now what???He is 3 hours away, but wants to meet halfway and try to make things work.  UGH - relationships are so much work,...

Well I am still seeing Todd, and I really like him - but he seems content with seeing each other maybe once every week and a half, and I just don't see how we will be able to build a relationship...

Wow - it's been awhile since I wrote a journal entry.  Probably not a good thing!  So much has happened.After months of dragging things out, both me and my ex are finally moving on.  We both...

The girls had to call an ambulance for their dad when he ended up with a perforated ulcer, and he had emergency surgery that night.  As usual, when something like this happens I am overwhelmed with...

Well it has been a week and things have settled down.  The kids aren't yelling at me this week, and the husband seems to have accepted the fact that we are not getting back together.I have never...

Things seem to be settling down a bit finally, although my husband just sent me a friend request on Facebook.....LOL.  Guess he is still in drama-land.  Yesterday was better, as my daughter called...

More drama yesterday, as my husband announced our break-up on Facebook.  The kids are still mad at me too.  Today my goal is to make it through today without a negative comment about my life.  I...

Well yesterday really stunk, and I am not sure how today is going to go.  Saturday night I told my husband I wanted a divorce, and now yesterday he got a DUI.  Of course I feel guilty now that this...

Well I did it - I told my husband I wanted a divorce last night.  Now it has been non-stop drama from all sides.  The kids are acting like it is the end of the world, even though we have been...

Well I have decided that tomorrow I am going to tell my husband I want a divorce.  After 22 years I just can't do it any more.  After being separated for 7 months, I now realize that I am ok on my...

Last night my daughter came over, and she said her dad has "cut down" on the drinking.  She says he is feeling better, and seems much more positive on life.  Why does this immediately make me...

Well I have told 3 out of the 4 kids that their dad is an alcoholic.  Funny thing is I am late to the party - they had already figured it out!  I am not sure how I could have let this creep on me,...

I am feeling really anxious today.  I have been paying my daughter's insurance bills because I know she can't afford it, and today is the first bill that she is paying herself.  It sounds dumb when...

Well today I joined this support group, and I invited my 3 adult kids.  How will they feel about it?  I don't know - and that I suppose is part of my problem.  Worrying about what THEY will think....