Change

Not a lot has changed ,arm pain is new .

Doctors were no use .

Lost friends, were they even friends. 

I'm still alone. 

Old school friend is dieing of cancer. 

All my work is dead too .

I go to bed and always think should I harm myself, I wake thinking I'm a failure. 

.I'm spendingdays waiting for the day to end,,, back to the horrible loop.

Wishing thato things had worked out and also wishing I had a purpose and value .

I really don't