3 weeks after

a close friend died on xmas morning.

wasnt found till the 29th 

its had a strange effect on me .

things seem pointless.

not depressed but it’s pointless.

2nd to die in last 6 months .

i don’t have any friends left that arnt 45 miles away .

my spine has been damaged for about 12 years .

it got worse about 8 months ago . I had an mri and a spine injection that was very painful but did little.

the last 7 weeks I’ve been limping and have tramadol, partly left over from the injection. 

I got a new pill for nerve pain, that will take a long time take effect.

tne tramadol is having little effect .

my relationship Are dead in the water .

lots of that relate to possible Aspergers or ASD.

this year my life has crashed off the rails.

in every area.

im just posting here because there is nowhere else