gothfemmedyke
Status: I need support. I have not been well mentally or physically for a very long time.
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I just came to the realization that triggers are not all bad. Mostly "triggers" refer to things that "set-off" bipolar symptoms, which is generally a bad thing when one is trying to find stability;...
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Everything in my heart and soul is dead and black except for my unwavering sense of propriety which will not allow me to do it myself. Would someone please be so kind as to knock me over the head...
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Will it ever end? It seems that with each new day I wake up to more problems being heaped upon my substantial "mountain" of problems... it just keeps growing and growing. I feel like I'm spinning my...
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I swear, between the rapid cycling (sometimes 10+ swings per day) and the long mixed episodes in between crashes, I'm either going to break every fucking dish in my house, or end up killing myself...
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I thought today was better, but I guess I was wrong. I recently hit myself approximately 15 times in the forehead (wait for the irony) with a thick, hard-cover self-help book. I have a huge...
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This morning I feel like I am waking up from a coma. Groggy. Exhausted. Feeling like much time has passed, but where did it go? What happened while I was "sleeping". My partner is in tears. She feels...
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The good news is that my gf and I are back together. The bad news is that so are me and my cigarettes. I will try again when the dust settles.
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My gf "broke up" with me a few days ago in order to reconnect with her Self. Even though I am in agony with heartbreak, I understand her need to do what's best for her. I also understand that she is...
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She says she has to go awayTo discover her lost SelfThe friend in me says, "Bon Voyage," and"Don't forget to write."Pats her on the back and congratulates her for doing what she needs to do.The Lover...
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I left the safety and sanctity of my home... I took arisk and ventured out in to the scary place thateveryone else describes as "reality"... and once againhave found myself crushed by the gravity,...
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Today... right here... on myspace... in front of millions of people... I am tearing my heart open to let the world see what's inside...If you're squeamish, you might want to look away...So here's the...
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This is something I posted as a discussion topic in the UNCENSORED BIPOLAR GROUP but felt that it might reach a wider audience here in my journal.... Has anyone here had custody of their...
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My partner has said that this is the most accurate account of my madness as observed by her. Many of my many other ramblings do not make sense because she cannot see inside my mind. The things I have...
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Fragments of sentences. Unfinished thoughts. Losing articulation. Reality blurs into shadows. Figments of my imagination. They are more real than tangible objects. Am'thyst is dead and no one cares....
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I have so many unanswered questions about my illness(es); the most prominent one being, "Why?"Why am I afraid to leave my house, when there is nothing I love more than being social, going to events,...
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