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Day 9 and not obsessing.  My girlfriend works/lives in a bar and she needed a ride cuz she doesn't have a car nor license.  I had to meet her at the bar.  No biggy.  I was only in there a couple...

Right now my avatar is saying, " Go away you useless thoughts of being able to manage to drink.  I have more important things to think about."

I wanted to change my "face" to a smiley, and I almost did,  but it would not have been honest.  It would've been just to make other people happy.  That's not such a bad thing, to fake being happy...

And Angel4Hope just might be my angel on earth.  Too sweet. 

My thoughts for today:  I feel bad I have not given Kalie positive words.  I hope my prayers for Jollyk ( Kim ) have worked.  Les- the pratt- doesn't like me.  Itsmylife is hell-bent on giving my...

Well I fucked up yet once again.  No sense in beating myself over it.  Kinda hard not to, though.  Really hard.  Oh well.  I'm sorry, people.  I'm really sorry.

I'm feeling insecure right now.  Not a good feeling.  I'm watching Intervention and I am feeling superior to those people and it is ricocheting into insecurity.How dare I cop an attitude of...

Today is day 5 and I am not white-knuckling it.  I will admit at 6pm I think about a nice, cold beer especially on these hot nights lately.  But that's all it is.  I do not feel compelled to take...

 guess I'm a natural born counter.  Worse than counting the days, I'm counting the freakin hours!!!  Gawd I just want to be normal, but I'm not and I accept it.This was physically the easiest and...

I feel sad but it has absolutely nothing about detoxing for a day and staying sober for the rest of my life.I feel sad cuz I feel abandoned.  Unloved and I'm sure I did something for it but I'm just...

Since I was laid off on01/31/08 and sitting home looking for a job on my computer, what do you think an alcoholic is going to do?  I have been drinking so much more than usual but I have detoxed...

  I am getting really saddened at the amount of relapsers in DS.  I am one of them.  That alone is depressing.  But what really upsets me the most are the long-timers that are relapsing.Gawd...