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I know he is in another state and not in the one he told me he was in, he is with another women he met on line.  I have known since last week and have gone from indifferent to, so be it, to I hope...

This past week I don't know I kind of lost it I am having my downward emotion, but I think its because I am tying to get everything together.  I got the papers to fill out for family court, and its...

I am doing ok today I even talked to him which usually brings me pain and sadness, but I gave a pause of sadness and was ok pretty quickly.  I am not going to annualiz why I am just going to enjoy...

I am really going to try not to let him dictate my moods and how I react to his moods.  He can change his moods and personality in seconds which makes me nuts because I never know what to expect. ...

I hate that he has more money and I have to rely on him. I hate that I have to be nice to him because of it and because I am a nut and feel that as long as he is not mad at me that means he misses...

 I have to be so nice to him for now so I can get money just to pay my bills.  Last time I asked for money he told me, because he was in a good mood that he would give it to me, and not to worry,...

I still am letting his moods reflect mine.  I think though than one reason I always want him not to be angry with me is because if he is not then maybe he is missing me and as missirable as I am. ...

-I thought it was hard to start over after 20 years.  I know I am better off since he will never change since he hasn't in the last 10 yrs since his behavior started to really get bad.  I just have...

I enabled you for 10 years believing your excuses and your lies that you told me, and told your self.  I allowed my self to be a part of our destruction by letting your behavior go on with out...

Well he left yesterday I was sad at the parting but the tension is gone so that is good. I don't have to listen for when he comes home and wonder where he has been and who has had been talking to....

I don't know why I keep doing this to myself.  I really do hate him and I really do hate what he is doing to me.  I keep going over in my head that he choose them over me by not stopping calling...

I had a good weekend for the first time in I can remember, well I can't remember actually.  I went to my sisters house and my niece was there with her daughter.  I love being with her so much she...

I am feeling ok today therapy yesterday helps it always does.  she makes me feel better because she keeps reinforcing that it has nothing to do with me what he does.  Its his addiction and he...

I hate when the weekend come around and I just want to get to that place in my life when I can't wait untill the weekend are here