hate
I hate that he has more money and I have to rely on him. I hate that I have to be nice to him because of it and because I am a nut and feel that as long as he is not mad at me that means he misses me. I hate that I want him to miss me so he can feel bad for what he did, because he does not even think he did anything wrong. I hate feeling like this. I hate him.
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I have been dealing with the same thing about acting nice just to keep him from not being mad at me so he won\'t rock the boat, so to speak. Slowly but surely I am making progress in standing up for what the kids and I need. I still haven\'t filed yet (although he wants the divorce), because I have been afraid of biting off my nose to spit my face financially.
Hating him is normal. It\'s been 15 months and I still hate my stbx. They have hurt us beyond what anyone should do to another person.