Mimi1979

Yesterday was 17 months to the data and date.  Dear God in heaven, how I miss my husband!  how I loved you, my dear Mark.   How I loved you........

Devastating grief.Unbearable pain.Debilitating loneliness.Working it through.Piecing things together.Day by day.It is what it is.Maybe somedayA glimmer of hope.  

WHY do they think they know best???  WHAT makes them think they know how I feel?  HOW DARE THEY!!!  ???

Funny, I thought coming up to Oregon for a visit wold be good for me. So why do I feel so tired and down? I am not enjoying myself the way I thought I would. Too many expectations? I don't know. I...

I have decided to leave this coal "unfinished".  Being a happier person is something I wish to strive for on a daily basis.  Exercising to become healthier.  Completing a TASK as to procrastinate...

I only took 2 walks this week. I skipped my standard Saturday walk in order to go to a Peddlar's Faire that I enjoy as well as my granddaughter's birthday party.Major task: while not MY task, I...

Okay, so this was not one of my best weeks.  I managed 3 walks, but 2 were not as strenuous or productive as I might have liked. I have been feeling sore, achy, tired. Okay, whatever. It happens....

Okay, this last week there has been a lot of talk about happiness (rebuilding it). And it go me thinking about this last year or so of my life.We had been married 33 years, 4 months, 22 days when...

Got 3 walks in this week. Weekend mornings are easy. Tuesday mornings are a bit more challenging. Maybe I need to find more places to walk.major task: finished organizing my garage ( for now ).  See...

Slipping back into the deep, dark abyss.  Not a place I want to go.Spiraling downward.Need to stop - need to grab hold.Of what?Of anything.Must not go there - at least not for long.The deep, dark...

Okay, I got my walks in. I can do about 2 miles in 35 minutes.  Not bad!major task: only partially accomplished as I underestimated the vastness of this particular endeavor.  I am TRYING to...

Adding this to my journal as a reminder to myself that Mark was loved my others as well as family.  Thank you to Jackie, who is doing Relay for Life!Several close people in my life, including my own...

Walked both Saturday and Sunday. The weather was a bit cool and breezy, but I enjoyed my walks anyway. On Sunday, I stopped and chatted with a man who had been talking to one of "my" ducks. It made...

All things considered, this week went very well.  I took four lovely walks, thoroughly enjoying the fresh air and solitude. My walks are becoming very important to me. I listen to music while I...

You can't rush grief any more than you can avoid it.     As Sharon said.It come in waves.    It ebbs and flows.  I wish I were independently wealthy so I could take all the time I NEED to...