musicmad123
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- child and adolescent mental heath service, hopefully being put on the waiting list for this soon, just wondering does anyone else see anyone from CAMHS or have any involvement with it ? it's a UK thing, xhope everyone's ol
- so I'm going to the doctor some time soon hopefully and I seriously think I need some meds for my anxiety, I have panic attacks at the moment they're really full on for about a week then i go ages barely having one, but I still have extreme anxiety,...
- I'm supposed to be getting a job when I finish my exams in May-June, but I have trouble facing school everyday, I don't think I can face getting a job, even if i need the money and it will prevent me closing in on myself..
- So i wrote a note explaing all my problems, and I showed it to my tutor today and also that thing called "before you make the first cut" which I'd heard is a good thing to explain cutting, she said that the before you cut thing was really scary,...
- So i wrote a note explaing all my problems, and I showed it to my tutor today and also that thing called "before you make the first cut" which I'd heard is a good thing to explain cutting, she said that the before you cut thing was really scary,...
- right I think what I hve is panic attacks it's been months since I had any and recently they've been like every other day, I get a pain in my chest, i can feel my heart racing, shortness of breath/hyperventilating, sweating, my whole body shakes I...
- I had to walk out of my R.E exam today, I 'd just asked my form teacher to help me tell my parents about whats going on in my life, and I was kinda scared, but my tutor has a wonderful way of making you feel calm. so i got up to my R.E room and I...
- so people have been telling me to tell my parents about my cutting, depression etc. I've been leaning towards telling them because I can't go to see this new therapist my counselor wants me to see without telling them apparently, I've already said...
- anyone else do this ? i got really annoyed last night, I got a small lack of skin on my finger and some bruises on my knuckles now...i don't encourage this, Im self harmer so Im used to the guilt, the hiding marks, but it just makes you more angry...
- so the school nurse is making me write a food diary again this weeek, but having to write down what I eat makes me eat less because I feel so guilty writing it down..gahh !!!
- cuttings getting worse and worse, it's spread my arms, my thigh, my stomach, my hand I cut so much everday so more more than I used to it's out of hand and I don't know what to do now, I was thinking of giving my razors to someone so I couldn't, but...
- there are people, well beings in my head, theres the purple bunny, he likes me, but he's really small and doesn't have much power, then theres the black cloud and it doesn't let me work and hates me and I have to hurt myself if i work at home, and...
- I was looking at pics earlier of people, well they were practically skeletons, I know that isn't disgusting and VERY unhealthy, but I can't help wishing I looked like that, im messed up...
- so a few days ago my counselor told me I don't exhibit a lot of the characteristics you see in a depressed person, she doesn't think I'm depressed, I'm not saying I think I'm depressed obviously I don't know better than her, it's jsut I find it so...
- I fainted again today, my tutor came past and she came to see me and she said if I won't eat anything she's going to bring me a sandwich and make me sit in the bio lab with her and she's not going to let me leave until i eat it, and to quote her...