mysticalangel

i cant help it....its drawing me in like a drug....i just cant help it... 

well, everything has been going...cant say good, but going. ive gained more weight. a shit ton actually. im up to 192 the last time i checked the scale. but ive also been back into my ED for about a...

today has just been entirley too mch already and its only 930. i havent slept in two days because every time i close my eyes i have a nightmare. i dont like nightmares. my moms boyfriend is back i...

my goal was to change a life...in the process of trying to change somebody elses life...i changed my own...and maybe hlped a couple on the way

so...ive been going through alot of rough times latley as pretty much everybody knows...with tara just starting over again all my progress from cutting and binging/purging started happening more...

so...i started talking to tara again....we even messed around a bit...it felt so good...having her in my arms again...her holding me...laying on her chest and listening to her heart beat....i love it...

well, my doctor told me that im morbidly obese at 161 pounds.....(hard to put that up here, please no bad comments)im in dance, i work, and i exercise. i dont know how i weigh so much. i barley eat....

i just wana scream...i just wana cry...i just want to feel wantedi just want to feel somethingi just want to live the way i know im supposed toi just want to stop listening to other people....but i...

i cut yesterday for the first time in months.....it felt so good...i cant believe i lasted so long without doing it...i know its bad...and i dont want other people getting n2 it...but.....it was the...

its all happening so fast again those thoughts to be thin gotta lose weight more and more and more then that. its really starting to scare me...all i can think about is how my girl tells me she loves...

today has just been entirley too mch already and its only 930. i havent slept in two days because every time i close my eyes i have a nightmare. i dont like nightmares. my moms boyfriend is back i...

my goal was to change a life...in the process of trying to change somebody elses life...i changed my own...and maybe hlped a couple on the way

so...ive been going through alot of rough times latley as pretty much everybody knows...with tara just starting over again all my progress from cutting and binging/purging started happening more...

so...i started talking to tara again....we even messed around a bit...it felt so good...having her in my arms again...her holding me...laying on her chest and listening to her heart beat....i love it...

well, my doctor told me that im morbidly obese at 161 pounds.....(hard to put that up here, please no bad comments)im in dance, i work, and i exercise. i dont know how i weigh so much. i barley eat....