i just wana...

i just wana scream...
i just wana cry...
i just want to feel wanted
i just want to feel something
i just want to live the way i know im supposed to
i just want to stop listening to other people....
but i kow i cant scream...crying will make me weak...no one wants me...my body is numb....i have to hide behind smiles so people dont ask questions...i have to listen because if i dont i get left behind...i sometimes feel like im living in a movie that someone else is controlling...sometimes im in an amazing mood and then something will turn me into a bitch..im losing everyone i love...and nothing is going the way it was supposed to...i just...
i just want to die.