finally happy:)

so...ive been going through alot of rough times latley as pretty much everybody knows...with tara just starting over again all my progress from cutting and binging/purging started happening more frequently...but then....somebody else came to my rescue...her name is amber...ive known her for about a year and ive had the biggest crush on her since the day i layed my eyes on her...me and her arent dating...but a couple days ago she told me that she really really likes me and that she wants to be more then friends some day....i almost cried...theres something about her...i cant put my finger on it...but its so amazing...she holds the door for me...she opens and shuts the car door...she hugs me like no other....the other day she told me that im not allowed to say goodbye to her...and i was like uhh??? she said that to her goodbye is forever and that she isnt ever saying goodbye to me....i almost cried again...i was at her house last night for a long time...i miss her alot right now...im finally seeing what being happy is all about..i thought i was happy with tara...not even close...im sooo happy now...i catch myself smiling when i just think about her...i catch myself smiling at all times when i am with her...i catch myself waiting to hear from her..i text her when i wake up and we talk....and then she goes back to sleep when i go to school...and she texts me before she goes to bed and we talk until she falls asleep...could this be love?....i really think so....i hope so....gah!