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NO ONE is worth killing yourself for.  NO ONE is worth making yourself mentally and emotionally sick.  I just have to keep reminding myself that no matter how much I love my husband, I CANNOT let...

I haven't been here in a long while.  Vacation and crazy work days have kept me fairly sane and occupied.  It's back to the real world now.  J is on his way to see an orthopedic dr.  I hope that...

I feel like a huge bundle of nerves.  J is feeling really bad.  He's going for a back x-ray today.  Hoping that will show something.  I am really not looking forward to being off work so many...

J is on his way to the doctor.  I hope and pray that it won't be anything too serious.  I really need a bit of good luck now.  As I've said before, all I want is normal.  Just normal.  Plain old...

J's doctor appt is tomorrow, not Thursday.  Kinda glad.  Kinda scared.  I want to know what is or is not going on with him.  He had gone several days completely normal and pain free.  It was...

This past week I was thankful for:1.  That my stubborn hubby has made an appt to see the doctor.2.  The really good weekend I have had/ am having.3.  Having a person that gives you a really good...

I've been a bit lax this past week.  I did exercise, but not as much as I should have.  I didn't spend as much quiet time as I should have.  I did try to use my week 3 techniques.  Never really...

Had a good day.  Good until J called and said that his rash was back on his face and chest.  His back doesn't seem to be quite as bad, but the rash and sweating and chills Are worrisome.  I've got...

I am behind on doing my gratitude journal, so here I go: The past two weeks I am thankful for:1.  Good friends that are willing to listen to me talk, and tell me to call anytime I need to.2.  For...

Had to work a couple of hours this morning.  A good thing really, it got me up and out of the house for a bit.  Haven't written in a couple of days, but have been exercising regularly.  When I do...

Seeing glimpes of my old self today. Looking forward to a walk, then yard work.  Gonna be awfully hot!!!

Feeling a little bit better.  I have increased my Zoloft dosage from 25mg to 50mg daily.  I think it is helping.  I just wish the tenderness in my breasts would go away.  I'm sure its just...

Not feeling so good this morning despite a good nights sleep.  I need to put on a happy face for J, he seems to be in a good mood.  I think that going to a new dr might be a really good idea.  A...

Update

I did it.  I exercised every day this week, without fail.  It wasn't as hard as I thought it might be.  I actually enjoyed it for the most part.  I was out in the dark, humid mornings, the hot...