Wednesday
I haven't been here in a long while. Vacation and crazy work days have kept me fairly sane and occupied. It's back to the real world now. J is on his way to see an orthopedic dr. I hope that he tells us something promising. I have learned not to hope though. Hope is a set up for disappointment. Since J is coming off the steroid again, the pain is coming back. Along with it the rash and digestive trouble, though not severe. J will come back to see me after his appt.
I am so tired and sleepy. If J does not sleep well, I do not sleep well. I will try to take a nap at lunch since I do not have to go to the bank.
I am so tired and sleepy. If J does not sleep well, I do not sleep well. I will try to take a nap at lunch since I do not have to go to the bank.
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Having a \"What If\" moment. What if J has cancer? I think oh God, not another cancer. What did we do to deserve this? Counterpoint- what if he doesn\'t? Be calm, don\'t worry until you know more. Worry is useless. I really want him to have a CT scan. Call your peer people this evening. Talk to someone. Get it out. I need someone to tell me that no matter what happens with J, I can be okay. Be kind to yourself.