mom-of-3

I should be a mess - J is drinking and T - I have no idea what he's up to.  We don't see him at all.  Last night when I woke up (or should I say this morning - since it was 4:30AM) T wasn't home....

J went to his second AA meeting with his old friend, Russ, from the rock band days. They've been friends since middle school and this friend of his has struggled with alcohol since high school.  I...

A few years ago when T-Man when he was obviously struggling and out of control with his usage, my dreams and thoughts were all consuming about him and what we should do.  I was a mess.  Now?  I've...

I think that T is up to eyeballs in drugs.  He's become so distant - never home, very evasive even more and more.  Because he's not getting arrested and no longer are we getting calls from the high...

Talked to J this afternoon.  He didn't come home last night.  Said he fell asleep at his girlfriend parent's house and wasn't feeling well.  I asked what was wrong and he said "withdrawals"....

I guess I could only take in so much when J was telling us about T.  I talked to J today about the heroin and he said that T did admit that he did "tried" it again.  Although he told J that he...

I was out gardening this evening when my husband called me into the house.  Our middle son, J, wanted to talk to us.  It was about T-Man.  Said he heard from some kids he doesn't know very well...

T-Man didn't come home AGAIN.  The screen on his cell doesn't work anymore so, at least, when I call he answers because he doesn't know who is calling.  I called after dinner tonight and he...

Found an oblong, white pill on the floor of our basement today.  It has APO on one side and 097 on the other.  Looked it up on-line (what would we do w/out the Internet?) and  I found out that...

My hubby is a very active and busy guy.  In fact, sometimes he's  WAY TOO BUSY and always been and seemed to prefer to be with others than with me.  I know, in my heart, that that isn't the case....

T-Man came down with a fever (he believes) last Tuesday - but by the time Friday rolled around he still had it.  Over that time period it spiked as high as 103.  Having said that - did that stop...

Despite what is going on in my son's life (even though on the surface he appears to be maintaining and doing well) I am moving away from that problem for awhile because things are at a standstill and...

T-Man has been coming and going as he pleases.  Although he's been going to work (which is awesome) I know that he is back using even though it isn't blatant.  He very good at hiding it (like in...

I hope the counselor will be able to help me tomorrow.  My husband can't make it - which is fine.  I need to talk to this guy without him.  Although things seem fine in our household - I know that...

Although we know T-Man is back at it - it's been almost hard to believe.  He's been responsive, conversational, and even has been going to work (part-time) - springing out of bed.  The job was...