joleneLS

My oh my how my life seems to have taken another quantum leap in the past few days! I think I'm gettin some cahones!!  I used to be, not meek per se, but not exactly steel spined.  But it seems...

I have been unhappy in my relationship for awhile now.  So has he, or so I think.  It seems we fight a ridiculous amount, and we spend alot of time going to bed in angry silence. Last night I just...

Today was oddly surreal.  It felt like for one day, just one day, I was living someone else's life.  Someone normal, without my basket case family and my nut house issues. It started out so...

This woman is going to be the death of me.  And if not, I may lose my temper and it will be reversed!  She drives me up the wall! She has three kids, my fiancee and his two sister's.  She thinks...

she holds her and she rockssoothing the sobsavoiding the tender, fresh bruises'it will be alright'  she pats the limp hairstokes the sunken cheekslooks into the flat, teary eyes'it will be...

I'm tired.  In every sense of the word.I lie awake at night, and I wonder 'what happened to me, to my life?"When I was a teenager I had big dreams, of big places.  Of all the things I would see and...

My fiancee and I had the mother of all fights last night.  I was just fed up, overwhelmed, and still hurting from the funeral.A week or two ago, I got this text from a number I didn't know.  So I...

One of the hardest things I have ever had to do.My own mother went with me, as her and Lisa were friends from a long time ago that had grown apart.  And sitting there, listening to her life on...

I went to the veiwing.  I walked into the funeral home with my fiancee and daughter, and Lisa was the only body in any of the rooms.  A man was leaving as we approached, he kept his head down and...

Lisa's wake is tomorrow. The family is viewing from 3 until 5 and I was invited to go during those hours.  However, I was very close to Lisa and her children.  I wasn't so close to her sisters,...

So I hung out with my best friend today.  We talked about what a wonderful woman her mom had been, her ten year struggle with cancer...how it won in the end, and the things that now rested on Dees...

My best friends mom, my second mom, died today.I woke up late, 2pm to be exact, because I have been battling a cold.  I sat up, and I thought to myself...'Lisa is going to die today.'   Then I...

SIGH...... My sister got sentenced yesterday.  She was charged with possesion of crack cocaine and intent to sell.  She got 2 years plus a few day's in a federal prison.  6-8 months if she...

   We are having our house warming party this Friday.  Ack!   That means I have to have the house clean and all the way unpacked by Friday.  Not such a big deal, but I'm waiting on my fiancee...

The house I live in right now, the house I sit and type this in, will only be my home for three more days.I should be thrilled to leave.  The walls are cracked, the paint is peeling, the windows...