akacountrygirl

akacountrygirl

Status: Doing my best to have a reason, purpose, and be reasonably happy.

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  • akacountrygirl

    Year

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    It has been a long exhausting year...I praying that 2014 is better   .I am too old and too tired for all these daily struggles.  When does the happiness come back???  I need happy so bad.
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    Tired

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    I am so tired of this battle within myself.  I don't think there is any meds in the world that will stop this.  Mind over matter???  Doesn't work but I'm still trying.
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    feelings

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    I am learning more and more about feelings and how they connect us to other people.  I still don't understand why I can't control my feelings but I guess it was meant to be. I am very concerned...
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    Feeling good

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    Even though the temp outside is getting colder....I feel good.  I guess I am starting to accept the thins I can not change. 
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    Still

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    I'm still having pain issues but the depression has let up.  Having an attitude of gratitude sure has helped me stay positive.I also saw a lady at the doctors office with one leg......only to...
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    New start

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    I joined the y yesterday.....going to try exercise to combat fatigue, insomnia, pain, boredom, and get healthy in the process.  Just hope I can motivate once winter gets here. Joined a new women's...
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    Tired

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    I am so very tired of trying to keep my life in order.  I have prayed and asked God to please help me but when I get a message from him/her I chalk it up to my imagination. Why do we always have to...
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    Positive

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    Feeling positive.  The shots I had yesterday had no side terrible side effects.   I am just hoping that next week will bring the same results.
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    Broken

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    I feel broken.  My destructive behavior keeps me broken.  Why can't I learn to love myself?  I guess cuz I feel like I'm not worth it.I have let the abuse from the past make me feel unworthy.  I...
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    Maintaining

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    Maintaining on pain meds.  So happy that TX is over.  Now to start a healthy happy life. Step one: exercise.Step two:  Kick depression's ass.  
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    Negative

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    Two years of hell....finally clean of hcv.....on my way to a healthy body.  Wow...I can't believe I did it. Must remember to give myself a big pat on the back.
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    Waitaing

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    Done with tx.  Now I am trying to conquer  the pain issue.  Scared to death of pills and needles. Just need help again. Will this doctor help me or toss me aside? Only time will tell.
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    Patient

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    Counting down the days till tx is over.  Hope it worked.Looking forward to having hair, not so depressed and the biggest one of all....energy. Thinking positive regardless of what my negativity...
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    Happy?

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    I am so happy to almost be done with Hcv tx.....so why did I drink???  Why do I sabotage every good thing I ever do?Realizing that suicidal tendencies are still present.  Need to deal with why I...
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    Still on the upswing

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    Still on the upswing.  Looking forward to Spring......been a long hard winter....but we are getting there.Tired of dealing with health issues.......feel so sad for those who are sick. Hope I can...
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