beggarseam

Well, I guess, since we're supposed to be concentrating on the thankful stuff, I'd put in my two cents.I've been relatively stable for a few months now.  My psych only needs to see me every few...

the hospital called today to say they are discontinuing my ECT treatments.  They didn't called me.  They called my husband.  They have nothing further to offer me.  And in truth, neither do I.

just about two weeks ago.. I got my second theatrical invite to paint scenery.  I start in a week.  I have a real portfolio in no time at this rate. :)

I started an acrylic portrait of my friend today.  I think it was my best ever even though it wasn't accurate at all.  she loves it so far.  I'd never done a person before.  She said that she...

I was accepted into a theatrical volunteer position.  I'm really jazzed!  Part of me is cautious too.  Like I suspect that they'll do the play without me and not even call.  But I don't know...

so I've been through another hospitalization.  I've had a Manic episode.  Still can't sleep because the "tape" of thoughts and 'day review' in my head won't shut off.  So I'm stuck just toodling...

I was in the hospital from Monday to Friday of last week.  I don't feel I got the help I needed.  I still want to die half the time.  The other half I'm trying not to be like that.  I feel...

I had a brilliant moment yesterday while I was trudging through some knitting.  I counted the stiches, corrected a mistake, and suddenly, I was able to understand the whole pattern!  I feel like I...

I hurt.  I think also, that I'm becoming destabilized.  I cried this AM.  I cried because I had a flashback of something I had always thought was a normal adolescent occurence, but a recent event...

I've been poisoned I think.  I went to the ER Sunday to get help for an allergy attack that apparently I didn't have(although I'd had one the day before), it was left over anxiety.  I see that...

Okay, so I don't have an auto immune problem after all(yay for that!)  I have a pain problem.  and it was hiding from me.  And it is so intense I'm not eating and cannot eat.  I've been drinking...

My new therapist..new, I've been wither for almost a year, is great!  I've seen in myself, significant improvement.  The last time I went to the psych hospital was for medication problems, not...

So I've been going to this Intensive Outpatient Group for a few weeks now.  I can honestly say now that I can finally see in myself some improvement.  I can think and speak more clearly.  I can...

i keep gaining weight.  I can't sleep.  I'm drinking too many liquids.  And I can't stop thinking about my friend , Wanda, who died two ...or is it 3 weeks ago.  She's been on my mind so much...

My oldest sister is taking me and my hubby on a cruise in march.  we all have to buy our own tickets ans stuff but she promises to be there and watch over us(me) and make such we (I) don't get into...