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I feel like a piece of furniture that's convenient to use, but a drag to take care of. Mother's day is coming up and I don't even want to be near my family.  It feels like i'm talking and talking...

It's my lunchbreak and I am feeling so miserable it's not even funny.  I have waisted so many opportunities to loose this fucking weight!  I am so sick and tired of myself it's driving me insane!

It's Thursday morning.  I'm sitting in the office eating a bowl of chocolate pudding in front of everyone.  What happened?  This morning I was full of reserve to fight for survival today, and...

I just read a post by someone saying they find strength in healing from pain. But I'm afraid of healing. I'm afraid of that. I'm afraid of letting go, what will I have to hold on to? The pain is the...

I've been depressed, happy and sad. I've yelled, begged and pleaded.Now I'm just fucking angry.

Being numb is the greatest feeling.  I have been very busy at work and at home and having my mind so occupied has been the best treatment.  I am very tired, but at least I don't feel anything bad.

It's Monday, 1:44 pm. Some big things have happened the past few weeks and I feel like a big weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I am also very proud of myself today. Except for the weekend,...

Two panic attacks in two days...don't know what's going on.

It's becoming increasingly clear that I don't deserve the things I have, or belong where I am. I have never fitted anywhere and I finally realise I should just accept this. I don't know what I'm...

Everything was so great when I opened my eyes this morning.  But then I blinked and everything turned to shit!  This world doesn't deserve a loser like me.

Tomorrow I have to go to work and leave my beautiful baby boy at home.  My heart is aching and I don't want to go, but I must.  I have to build a better life for my family and get out of this rut...

The baby's crying, the kitchen's a mess the beds need making....no, just sit down and take a breath.  Calm the baby, clean the kitchen, make the beds.I can't wait to start my new job.  It's very...

It's a new day.  A new sunrise.  The trees are green and the birds are singing.  Strange how I haven't noticed these things in a while.  New opportunities are on the horizon and I'm feeling...

I have been struggling with my OCD for a very long time now.  It makes me depressed when I can't have/do things the way I want them, so I just walk away and not do anything.  I have decided to try...

I suppose it's all my own fault really.  They don't know what I'm going through, so why should they expect to find me anything but cheery and the house all tidy and perfect when they come home. ...