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Anger.  I'm eating because I'm angry.  I feel so helpless in this situation and I wish there was a way I could deal with it other than food.

It seemed that I had a good plan to not eat unneccesarily today.  I thought I had everything under control, but the moment I heard my fiancè's comments about the car, it sent me in a downward...

Hah! Feeling like this is not welcome.  I have never, EVER, in my life been this fat!  I am sad, angry...no livid, with myself.  And then I take another bite of pie, or chips, or whatever I can...

I haven't felt this bad in quite some time.  I've been taking Talolmil for the last two and a half months, and up untill Sunday I haven't felt so good in my life.  And then suddenly everything just...

I feel like a piece of furniture that's convenient to use, but a drag to take care of. Mother's day is coming up and I don't even want to be near my family.  It feels like i'm talking and talking...

It's my lunchbreak and I am feeling so miserable it's not even funny.  I have waisted so many opportunities to loose this fucking weight!  I am so sick and tired of myself it's driving me insane!

It's Thursday morning.  I'm sitting in the office eating a bowl of chocolate pudding in front of everyone.  What happened?  This morning I was full of reserve to fight for survival today, and...

I just read a post by someone saying they find strength in healing from pain. But I'm afraid of healing. I'm afraid of that. I'm afraid of letting go, what will I have to hold on to? The pain is the...

I've been depressed, happy and sad. I've yelled, begged and pleaded.Now I'm just fucking angry.

Being numb is the greatest feeling.  I have been very busy at work and at home and having my mind so occupied has been the best treatment.  I am very tired, but at least I don't feel anything bad.

It's Monday, 1:44 pm. Some big things have happened the past few weeks and I feel like a big weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I am also very proud of myself today. Except for the weekend,...

Two panic attacks in two days...don't know what's going on.

It's becoming increasingly clear that I don't deserve the things I have, or belong where I am. I have never fitted anywhere and I finally realise I should just accept this. I don't know what I'm...

Everything was so great when I opened my eyes this morning.  But then I blinked and everything turned to shit!  This world doesn't deserve a loser like me.

Tomorrow I have to go to work and leave my beautiful baby boy at home.  My heart is aching and I don't want to go, but I must.  I have to build a better life for my family and get out of this rut...