beautifullie13

its almost been a year since i last cut... the urge is killing me... i just wanna cut again no one seems to think its a big deal since they never say they r glad i havnt or they r proud... the urge...

saw my sister today.. hadnt seen her in awhile. i told her she lost waight she said i gained waight...so i looked in the mirror  spent 10 mins calling myself fat and crying cuz its hard to lose...

im so sick of having everything be ok then watch it fall apart.. i used to pray every night now im just yelling at God every night cuz he hasnt killed me yet... i keep trying to not worry and...

Ive spent too much time thinkin about you,Now im drunk off the tears,Ive gone numb to the pain,Gotten high off your smile that I miss so much.Im just gonna sit in silence,Using anythingI can to cover...

I don’t want to let go of you, though you may have already let go of meWhen I was breaking without you, you were fine.My heart bled I missed you so much yet you seem untouched.This was my mistake...

Im laying on the floor,Staring at the blade.I miss its cold touch,I miss its harsh kiss,I miss its crimsion tears,I miss its dead relese.

This town,This town is stained,This town is stained with the memories of thepast,Every where i look i see the pain ive felt,Every where i look i see the tears ive shead,Every where i look i see...

Shes been hurting for years,Shes been lying for months,Shes been crying for weeks,Shes been screaming for days,Shes been cutting for hours,Shes been dying for minuntes,And now... shes breathing for...

I feel like this is just pontless,I get friends then they leave,I feel like my life has come together but then it gets crashed,I think everythings ok then something comes along to prove everything is...

One day I will forget you,One day I will be able to go through my day without thinking of you and cry,One day I wont want to hear your twisted words,One day I wont want to feel your lifeless skin,One...

I feel like a there is something inside me,Something that makes me act like im not myself.Something that makes me cry for no reason,Something that makes me angry for no reason.Something takes over me...

Im the girl you called ugly,Now im trying to cover up my "ugly" face with make up.Im the girl you called stupid,Now i gave up school becuse now i think i will never make it.Im the girl you called...

Im the girl you dont see walking right by you,Im the girl you dont hear when shes screaming at the top of her lungs.Im the girl who wants you to remember her,but how could you when you dont even...

Its not that i dont care,its not that im mean,i just think we have come to the end.the end of the road,you go your way,i go mine.i mean no harm,yet somehow you look at me like im the enemy,the last...

You wont leave my thoughts,I can still hear your voice in my head,I can still feel your touch,I can still feel you watching me.I want it to go away,no matter how hard i try you wont leave,Please just...