FAT AND UGLY

saw my sister today.. hadnt seen her in awhile. i told her she lost waight she said i gained waight...so i looked in the mirror  spent 10 mins calling myself fat and crying cuz its hard to lose waight then 20 mins looking in the mirror trying to figure out whats wrong with my face and crying cuz even if i lose waight ill still have an ugly face.. ive spent over an hour now pointing out every thing thats wrong with me.. its such a long list... most of it i cant fix so now im stuck looking in a mirror crying cuz im so ugly and if i tell anyone this they will just tell me to shut up or say im saying im ugly for attention.. but im not.. i honestly feel hidious... i hate this... one comment and i was sent into a spirual...