tiggerbear

Well its been years since I have been on this site.  Have I moved on.  Sort of.  It hasn't been easy.  H will not let go.   I successfully got him out of NZ in 2010.  Unfortunately back then I...

So its been a month since H boarded a plane and left for an indeterminant amount of time.I've been flat tack cleaning the house out, cleaning the garage up (all the things I haven't been able to do...

Well I've done it.  I've come up with a plan to keep my options open (why, I don't know... actually I do know why, its because I hope that he will change and that time apart will make a difference...

ugg I'm on a roll right now. So the cat litter box situation.  I think I just made it worse for me, congrats to my controlling hubby on that.He found a stray kitten and we've been keeping him in...

So I'm busy at work when the phone rings.  I answer.  Its hubby and he's aggro.  I'm sure the guy at the desk next to me could hear his voice as he was quite loud.  not yelling but close to...

Gosh was it less than two weeks ago when the last "bad thing" happened.  And what a day to have the next bad.I started noting on my calendar the times in which H "yells, yells and threatens, yells...

So last Sunday night having had a miserable couple of days (why does it have to happen on weekends when I really need to unwind from work and have a break, and instead end up even more of a mess come...

Having read up on the what the Stockholm syndrome is all about, I found myself nodding along to the description of how the victim thinks and why they stay in the relationship. I fit in so well. And I...

Worked myself into a tizz before heading home from work Friday night to face the unknown.And came home to find he was in the 'I dont care' mood.  Whatever I say, or ask is either ignored or given...

So after last nights episode as per last journal entry, I am dreading going home tonight.  I rang up and he didnt' say anything on the phone so I said 'hows things, I'm going to be late home", "how...

So I blurbed out my insides on the previous writing for last nights episode.  And re-reading it, I wonder why if its like this that I feel in order to live in 'good times' that good times are...

Whew, I was begining to wonder if things had stabilised and all was going to be good indefinitely.  The past 3ish weeks have been good. I've avoided annoying h, I've managed to look after our sick...

Ok, so everything continues to go good, its been almost two weeks, we had another  good uneventful weekend.  There were a few times I felt H should have spat the dummy and started to get aggro but...

Yet another good day passes.  Whats up with this.  I'm waiting for the next outburst, but I cant see one coming yet.  I mean I can usually get a vibe off him early that somethings up but nothing...

Ugggg last week I was adament, I was moving on because I have to.  I was feeling strong and in control of my to-in and fro-ing.  But the last few days have been great.  My hubby hasn't said a mean...