Obeylix

I hate being miserable because it fosters anger, that anger becomes rage and before I know Im back to being miserable. Its not fucking worth it, any of it.

This is not about anyone on DS. For 3 weeks I have had the same friend they will come round on saturday night, for the 3rd week in a row, he is not answering his phone and I know he wont show. It is...

Ok, So the Hiatus hernia is an annoyance but manageable.My diagnosis of IBS still stands as well as the hernia. More things to take, its no wonder my guts are so fucked!Really world, come along and...

Light a fuse, fan the flames and depart without a word.It never ceases to amaze me.

I was mucking around, being a nuisance and fell over. I put my hand down to save myself but my index finger on my right hand didnt bend, gave out under the pressure and dislocated. It's all back in...

I dont like seeing my own blood. Stomach has caused me so much pain, Ive seen an awful lot of it lately.Omeprazole and domperidone really dont work at all.

Ive not really written in ages. Nothing of substance anyway.Depression wise, I am doing much better. I fall every now and again but its never as far of for as long so I think I am turning a corner...

I think I may have a chest infection. I am weak as a kitten, can hardly breathe, having problems sleeping, hot and cold flushes. I am being stubborn and refusing to see a doctor. I think I can win...

So fucking miserable. SO fucking useless.I am nearing the end of my tether. Bored of bouncing. Something has to give. 

I watched this film last night.I wish I hadn't.Pointless and poor. Sick for the sake of it. No horror, just horrific.Blurgh!

The seams are splitting apart again.The cracks are showing. Listen to the loonies croon.Watch me fall and enjoy the show.

For those who care to read this, if anyone.It's Baz. I closed my account in a rage, mainly because I was being told what I could and could not post and I what I was and was not allowed to comment on....

I have been getting a good handle on my BPD and depression. I feel ok most days, I feel like I am able to do things and I dont feel like I am so demanding on Sarah. This has been a nice relief of...

I am bleeding, heavily today. I feel horrible, I came here to do the usual and now Im angry. DS fails because a lot, not all, of the people fail

I dont understand much anymore. As easy as being kind things arent. I just dont see a future where people can actually just be accepting of each other