Obeylix

Today I bounced back up.Sometimes the rebound aint all bad :P

That is how I feel today, meh.I woke this morning and had a nice cry, although what started it is beyond me, I just could not hold back the tears. I think the weekend took it out of me more than I'd...

and misery...yay!Dog is ill, looks very ill. Have to take him back to the vets but I fear I am going to lose him.Just needed a shoulder today but I'll struggle on through, I always do.

I hate crying because I feel stressed.I hate feeling weak.I hate being me at times.

I think I know whats been going on. I have been getting worked up over starting the OU, fear of failure, the usual bullshit. Added to that, my shit christmas which has made me angry that I missed out...

But I am not laughing. Not happy, not that anyone gives a fuck. Just saying. Ok when I offer support though? Yeah? Sounds about right. What was that Get Cape, Wear Cape, Fly line?Oh yeah.The next...

Stupid fear of failure is making me want to back out of OU. I cant remember my OU password and it's stressing me a little. Fuck it, I sometimes wonder if I set myself up for failure on purpose. It's...

That is all.

I woke up at 3 am christmas morning unable to breathe, I steadily felt worse and have spent 4 days unable to move because my legs and back ached so much. Flu is a prick at the best of times but to...

Ever felt so excited and childish that you may have blocked all common sense?I dont even care that much for christmas, so its not that. Just feeling better over-all I guess.Ive even been tidying, but...

I baby-sat my niece today.We have taken to being dizzy together. She sat on the pc chair and I spun it, the chair fell over and she hurt herself. Guilt I will carry forever.Accidents happen but I...

Stomach issues, still.Bad mood.I cant be bothered.just another shit day!

Yep, in pain today. Feeling like shit. 

or potentially break it.

..same mood. Not so angry but still very low.Had dentists this morning. She knocked out a filling then gave me a lecture on tooth care. Completely missing that it was her that hooked the bloody thing...