jackieisme

  Today was pretty simple and drama free...just the way i like it.I slept.I ate.I slept some more.And now i am watching tv. Sadly everytime i was sleeping and dreaming i had dreams about him.The...

 What can i write today?Still trying to be positive..it can be very hard to do sometimes.I saw my greatgrandma today, she is 98 and i love her so much she means the world to me and makes me want to...

 Your born.You grow up imagening and planning just how perfect and just how your life will go.School, Friends, Jobs, Family, Your own place, Pets, Love and so on.At what point does i all go down...

each year i wonder how i do it, how do i get through each winter. the germs. the flu...the stomach flu. how do i avoid it..each spring feels like a triumph another winter i made it through. but then...

i think i need help.but i dont know in what way exactly, iv gotten theropy before. most of the time i know how to deal with my panic attacks but they have started coming back again. for a while there...

-shacking-cold and hot at the same time-sore throat-nauses-cant sleep-pissed off boyfriend i hate tonight.

update i havent been on since december. but i feel good knowing i can come here whenever i need to vent even if it is months and months between each one.i have been with my boyfriend for 4 months....

Here is an update. its been 2 months i believe since i was last on here.i havent been useing my ativian as much when i have panic attacks. not by choice more like i just never have any.  if i am at...

 how do most people get along when they are sick? how do they deal with living alone and having a panic attack and having no one their to help them calm down.how do i live at home and when i have a...

are there more sad times then there are happyis there more hate then there is loveare there more tears then smilesare you lost searching to be foundare you struggling  to stay afloatare you confused...

 I am proud to say things are going great. I still get sad and miss certain people in my life but..im moving on. making new friends..starting new hobbies...its exciting when things start to seem...

i did something bad...something really bad.i am very ashamed, i dont even want to say what i did on here. i am better then what i did...i feel terrible...i know im not perfect..very far from it...

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew. The pain of having a broken heart is not so much as to kill you, yet not so little as to let you live. Moving on...

  Crap i didnt write anything yesterday.Ok ill make it up by writing more today, hahah I woke up at 6:00 am today for work and didnt get home till 3, even then i didnt get to have a nap way to...

  Second one today.Hasnt been that long since i wrote my last journal, id say its been about acouple hours to be honest.Right now i feel like i need to write, i am pissed off at the world right...