aspiringballerina

If I stop eating again, will my life be under control? What if I hurt myself or give into the OCD thoughts? What if I allow myself to believe the intrusive thoughts that darken my day? Or what if I...

When you're a kid, the monsters come out in your nightmares. They lay under your bed, send chills down your spine. But these childhood monsters can be chased away by parents, can be erased by the...

I do ok during the day, but when the night comes it's like a veil of darkness is thrown over me. All of a sudden I can't breathe and the pain becomes too much. I collapse under the weight of...

What do you do when the depression hits at night? When the depression hits you like a wall, covering you in a dark cloud? Every night it's like the depression is coming to kill me. It's so much it...

I'm so tired of crying at everything lately!! I drop a spoon, I cry. I make a wrong turn, I cry. I can't find something, I cry. If someone says something even slightly off, I cry! I'm so tired of not...

Why do other people get to heal and I don't? It's not fair. I'm trying. I'm trying so hard and it's just getting harder. Harder to fight the thoughts. I just don't have the energy to fight...

I did it. I hit 130 pounds. And then I cried. I cried because I hadn't weighed that much in 6 months. I cried because I felt so guilty for gaining weight. I cried because I felt ugly. I cried because...

I finally got a phone appointment with my psychologist to discuss my eating issues...I'm so nervous. It took me forever to decide to ask for help and now I'm so scared of what she will say. I don't...

I just had a long argument with my roommate about how she's so much skinnier than I am. She doesn't see it. She's so beautiful and thin and I'm not. I want to be as skinny and beautiful as her. The...

The eating disorder thoughts are starting to come back and I'm so sad. I'm sad because I can once again feel myself losing who I truly am. I had almost 2,000 calories yesterday and I feels so guilty...