Lotus1275

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• Breakups & Divorce
  

  Broken

  Posted by: Lotus1275

  Last Reply: Harley 01/21/2017

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  I am trying to understand how to deal with the abuse I just went through. I feel angry and crazy... I feel destroyed and lonely. I feel like something is wrong with me and am trying to understand why this happened. Am i not good enough? It feels that way. I am afraid of never being loved. I want to disappear. Does any of this get easier? I went from buying a house for him and us and being on the cusp of marriage to being alone and devastated.. broken. 

• Narcissistic and Sociopathic Abuse Survivors
  

  Broken

  Posted by: Lotus1275

  Last Reply: SmilingGlo 03/20/2018

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  I am trying to understand how to deal with the abuse I just went through. I feel angry and crazy... I feel destroyed and lonely. I feel like something is wrong with me and am trying to understand why this happened. Am i not good enough? It feels that way. I am afraid of never being loved. I want to disappear. Does any of this get easier? I went from buying a house for him and us and being on the cusp of marriage to being alone and devastated.. broken. 

• Emotional Abuse
  

  Devastated

  Posted by: Lotus1275

  Last Reply: bluesprite72 01/28/2017

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  I am trying to understand how to deal with the abuse I just went through. I feel angry and crazy... I feel destroyed and lonely. I feel like something is wrong with me and am trying to understand why this happened. Am i not good enough? It feels that way. I am afraid of never being loved. I want to disappear. Does any of this get easier? I went from buying a house for him and us and being on the cusp of marriage to being alone and devastated.. broken. 

• Breakups & Divorce
  

  Devastated and Lost

  Posted by: Lotus1275

  Last Reply: BrighterDaysAhead 01/21/2017

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  I am at 2 months out of the relationship that lasted 3 years. the frst year I was certain he was my soul mate. I fell so in love and ignored many red flags. Bought a home and moved, for him, only.to thensoend almost 2 years in hell. Isolation from family and friends, abuse by every definition, laziness and blame, adhd, cheating, lying.. it was hell and damaging to a level that I don't really even know who I am anymore. Everything I have read about Narcissistic abuse is 100% how things have...

• Narcissistic and Sociopathic Abuse Survivors
  

  Devastated and Lost

  Posted by: Lotus1275

  Last Reply: friendinjesus 02/15/2018

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  I am at 2 months out of the relationship that lasted 3 years. the frst year I was certain he was my soul mate. I fell so in love and ignored many red flags. Bought a home and moved, for him, only.to thensoend almost 2 years in hell. Isolation from family and friends, abuse by every definition, laziness and blame, adhd, cheating, lying.. it was hell and damaging to a level that I don't really even know who I am anymore. Everything I have read about Narcissistic abuse is 100% how things have...

• Narcissistic and Sociopathic Abuse Survivors
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: Lotus1275

  Posted: 01/20/2017

  Lotus1275 commented on the discussion Happy to stumble across the group :).

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  Joined New Group

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  Posted: 01/20/2017

  Lotus1275 joined the group Emotional Abuse.

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  Joined New Group

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  Posted: 01/20/2017

  Lotus1275 joined the group Narcissistic and Sociopathic Abuse Survivors.

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  Joined New Group

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  Posted: 01/20/2017

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 01/20/2017

  Lotus1275 became friends with TeamDS.