ShivIT

I don't know why I come back to this website. I never get the answers I want. I'm probably asking the wrong questions. I have been bp for 21yrs, but I still believe I can beat it and I don't need...

I haven't been on for a while. I started exercising at the beginning of the summer and was doing great for about 3 months. But now my body is crashing again. The mornings are ok, afternoon I start to...

I didn't realize how serious Mono could be. Somehow I have worn my body down so badly that I can barely move. I felt like something was wrong about 4 weeks ago but I thought it was my thyroid. That...

Things have been a little scary this week. I'am having a hard time keeping the negative thoughts out of my head. I had to take an extra clonapin last night so I could stop my obessesive thoughts. I...

How people can so easily abuse the innocent. I have an extremely hard time listening to stories about children who have been abused in every way possible.I was at my mother in laws yesterday and a...

Two camping trips in two weeks. I'am all camped out. I enjoyed the first one despite falling on my chin. But the second one was just boring and miserable.The wind blew constantly and bugs were...

I went to the gym the other day and I swear everywhere I went there were groups of guys working out, talking, and scratching their balls. It really makes you wonder were people's hand have been when...

We went camping over the weekend. It was quite an adventure. My husband and I were the only one's sleeping in a tent. The kids were sleeping in the RV with Grandma and Grandpa. Well everyone had been...

I don't know why I write in my journal. I don't think anyone notices. Anyway, things have been a little stressful. I have a bad back and I hurt it badly on Monday. I think I will be ok. I have been...

We (the family) have been busy this week. We are painting the TV room. Our house is 25yrs old and I think it has only been painted once. We have had to do alot of spackling, sanding, washing, and we...

I'am feeling good today. I got alot done yesterday and that always makes me happy. I went to the gym with my husband later that night. For some reason I didn't have alot of energy. I'am trying to eat...

I don't get it. People ask to be my friend and I accept, but after that they dissapear and I never get a chance to chat with them. They sit on my friends list, but we have never talked. Why do people...

This may sound horrible to those of you who don't know me. But I have noticed that everytime I talk to someone in my family I become sad and want to kill myself.I didn't see the pattern until...

My journal's were have been a little sad lately. I'am scared, I'am terrified. My thoughts continue to run away into places I don't want to go. I'am fighting but I'am beginning to feel despair. I'm...

I'am feeling a little frustrated. We have spent nearly the whole summer either helping or doing things with my husbands family. I would really like a break. Just a week would be nice. But they need...