Rape Support Group
If you or someone you know has been the victim of rape, this is the place to find support and get advice. If you want, discuss your experience, share your feelings, and meet others going through a similar situation.
I've never been so proud of myself. My boyfriend and I were hanging out when he asked if he could take my pants off. I said maybe. He was gentle and loving. Of course he got maybe a quarter of the way down before I panicked, got them up and ran to his bathroom to throw up. He was right beside me the whole time. He rubbed my back and helped me past it. When I calmed down, we got some good and we talked. We then went back to his room and played games for a bit. I got a strange boost of confidence and I let him go at it again. The confidence left as soon as my pants were completely off. THEY MADE IT OFF!!!!!!
AGAIN SAMR RESULT. (realized I'm in all caps... Oops.) So I thought third time's the charm and we did it again. And this time he was able to give me pleasure. Something I've never, ever felt and it felt good and bad. Is that normal?
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Middy is off for a bit so if anyone needs a CL please just give me a shoutSending a big hug...xo
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I was sexually assaulted as a kid. I find it hard to accept that another person's actions caused me so much harm. He made bad choices and now I am paying the price. Stupid PTSD!
good and bad... but it's ok.
I see you trust him, and he's willing to be really patient with you... as long as he's treating you good otherwise, keep him! Lol
When we were abused, or minds were 'programmed' to know that this 'felt good' when it really didn't.. and to say whatever 'they' wanted us to do/say..
As we get older, we ALL move at a different pace..it's ok.
After I was raped, I blamed myself for his anger. And so my new goal was to keep the piece between anyone around me, and let them do what ever they wanted to do to me if it meant they would be happy..
For many many years (some times still) if someone said anything positive towards me, I hated it and got really upset.
My wife and I were both sexually assaulted as kids.. we took everything very very slowly... I still struggle with things when she says good things towards me.. I argue about it, then at times, still get upset..
over the past 13 years of marriage, we have learned each other triggers...
it's not all smooth sailing, but we pay attention to each other's responses..
Take things slow, you are heading in the right direction lbs...now one last thing..
the next time it doesn't happen, please do not blame you, or him.. it comes with time, trust, and understanding..
Good job of the enjoyment! Much more enjoyable than the abuse we were told felt good..
Thank you for posting..
it's good to read a persons excitement, yet still have questions! That means you're working on your healing, you may never be 100% healed, but learning safe tools, is great!!
You or anyone are always welcome to drop me a line and comment, question, or just talk. I'm here for all!
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