We were really close friends for a year and we saw eachother everyday. I wanted to forgive him for the longest time, I tried to talk to him about it on a couple of occasions. The first time I had to describe to him what he did cuz he claimed he was too drunk to remember it at all. It seemed like he was horrified with himself for what he'd done, but after that conversation, he just treated me like dirt. He would act as though he found me disgusting, and would tell me that i was pathetic and delusional bc i was such a mess over what happened. I'm currently going through the legal process and avoiding him at all costs, but i miss having him as a friend. all our mutual friends have cut me out because i was extremely depressed and they couldn't handle being around me. Only one of them knows what he did and she doesn't talk to me anymore. I know he did a horrific thing to me and im better off with him out of my life but i find myself still wanting to see him and just hang out like we used too.
Today is a day that I sometimes forget about but it's my body and my mind that remember. I wish they too would have had the memory loss. But nope every year on 10/03 I am reminded of 1999 when it left like my life was over. This is a little different though. From me being so sick the feelings aren't as bad as past years. I honestly think that after 19 years I am not scared of this day. Maybe one...
Last week I found out my partner of 4 years has been sexually abusing my 11 year old daughter.......I'm completely lost.......Not slept since it happenedI'm trying to be tough and yes I have amazing support of friends and family but I need to talk to people in similar situations........Help x