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Stupidly told the truth

sadalonehurt154
sadalonehurt154

I have been living with what happens to me for 13 years and not once have I slipped up, never let anyone know. Well I'm an idiot and it all happend so fast I told my friends mom I was sad and now I'm even more sad all I want to do is give up, on everything. I have been abused from the age of 3 until about a month ago. I am just so confused about everything. Friends mom says I shouldn't go home. She wants to know what's happening at home. And he is just blowing up my phone. I hate making him mad and I know he is going to be so mad at me, he already is because I'm not supposed to stay out past a certain time. I just don't know what to do. Why am I so stupid? 

donnawanda
donnawanda
Is the one blowing up your phone the one abusing you? Stay with your friend. You did right to tell. You being abused is not okay.
dash
dash
you have two choices.
1. go all the way. tell all and don't look back.
2. go home and take what you have coming. stall any longer and it'll be worse.
Rizen
Rizen
If you're okay with talking about it, saying how you were abused would help us understand the situation. Don't blame yourself for being abused. You don't control other people's actions.
sadalonehurt154
sadalonehurt154
yeah he is the one abusing me. I don't know what to do. I can't tell her everything my family would be crushed. I guess you're right I have to just go back and deal with it. Before he has the chance to get really really pissed.
Rizen
Rizen
Don't go back into an abusive situation.
Rizen
Rizen
Is this something you need to tell the police? You don't deserve to be abused.
donnawanda
donnawanda
You should not be sacrificed to spare your family's feelings. If you were in my family I would be crushed to think you accepted abuse to spare my feelings.
sadalonehurt154
sadalonehurt154
It started when I was 3 sexual things I lost my innocence when I was 7 to him and some of his friends and he got violent when I was around 5 not only to me but my whole family.
dash
dash
everyone that's telling her not to go home doesn't understand that it's not that easy.
you are the only one that can make this choice sad but if you make the choice to tell stick with it and don't turn back.
sadalonehurt154
sadalonehurt154
I'm not worth it, not worth all the pain and hurt my family would go through if I said something. That is if they believe me which I'm not even sure my mom would
dash
dash
fuck your family.
evidence.
Rizen
Rizen
sad you don't have to go back. Try calling a crisis line that fits your situation.
https://support.dailystrength.org/hc/en-us/articles/207430776-What-if-I-need-emergency-help-
Rizen
Rizen
talk to them and they can help you figure out what to do.
Rizen
Rizen
Are you in the usa? try here:
http://www.thehotline.org/
1-800-799-SAFE (7233)
sadalonehurt154
sadalonehurt154
Thank you Rizen, I appreciate the help. I feel like my chest has a truck parked on It. I'm walking home and trying to figure out what I'm going to say to him when I get there. And what I'm going to say to my friends mom the next time I see her.
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