This is normal, your therapist is right. Some days are going to feel heavier and some will feel better. I have those days as do a lot of others. Keep coming back, vent, and keep doing what you're doing. Take good care of yourself... We're here...
Sending you support and gentle hugs for today... You're not alone

I do. I feel like, i'm 53 and i should have my brain under control by now. But after calling a crisis hotline today and crying my eyes out, she explained that no one does this alone, and do not be hard on yourself about that.

I watch and read a lot about PTSD and GAD, since i have both, and one guru said to grab a blanket and wrap it around you and pull it tight. In essence, it acts like a hug, which calms your nerves. It works in some cases. I tried it today when I woke up trembling in cold sweats. It helped. It actually kicked off a day of crying, which believe it or not, is preferable to the insane going out of my mind with panic trembling all day.

Sorry you feel this way. I totally know how you feel. But really, it's just not our fault. HUGS.

Hey…I get that feeling too. It’s like a vicious circle but you are doing great. Know that! You are taking care of yourself….talking, exercising, make sure to eat healthy too ;)
That whole blanket thing would work I bet…..I use a weighted blanket and it dies wonders for me. Plus I see a naturopath doctor and she is amazing!!
I was just about to do my nightly yoga but wanted to reply…..you are definitely not alone in feeling this way. Sending hugs.

The anniversaries of days are the toughest. The flood of memories and feelings is surreal. You just gotta remember and tell yourself that was in the past and they are memories. Its not real anymore and cannot hurt you. Sending positive thoughts your way. The day is 23 and change hours. You got this. I believe in you.

You spoke for me, Mel, that's for sure, and I've been diagnosed since 1985. Sometimes I fool myself into thinking that I've got this chronic thing down, that I'm slick with my PTSD symptoms, and then I have a day like this past Wednesday. It wasn't any anniversary, I was in a good head space, but then BOOM panic attack at 6pm. WTF? And it went through the night into the next day. Wha-?

It passed as they always do, but yo, did I ever get put back in my place Reaching out for support here was the way out of bouncing around with those PTSD symptoms all alone in my head. I'm really glad you reached out, too, and I hope peer support helps you as well since for you this IS an anniversary situation. We're with you.

Nobody is weak. Your PTSD comes and goes how it wants. It doesnt care what it does to you. The only thing you have to remember is that if youre breathing = youre fighting = youre winning the battle. There will be good and bad days but the constant is you fighting back is you living. Do not let it win.

Thank you everyone for normalizing this and not making me feel weak or like I'm crazy. My husband and I got into a fight this morning. I told him I was on edge and my anxiety was up because of the date, but he said I seemed to be fine. I just needed to coast through the day, be gentle with myself, and I expressed that to him.
I've also told him that how I look on the outside isn't always representative of how I am on the inside or how bad my PTSD is affecting me. It is just so frustrating. I feel like all of my friends get it and I don't understand why he can't when I am verbalizing and being so clear about what I need. He wasn't with me when I first got diagnosed or was going through the worst of things, but he has seen my panic attacks and the days I couldn't get out of bed. I just feel like I'm spiraling now today and having trouble getting back to baseline. I have reached out to my therapist, doctor, and friends for support.
I am not blaming him and I know that he didn't cause my PTSD but I feel angry when I don't feel like he hears me when I express my needs and his actions resulted in making what was already an extremely dfficult day harder for me.

yup, i feel weak for not controlling my symptoms better.
i also feel weak for a kajillion other things i don't have the energy to type.
ply therapy tools here. . .

on the anger of my hubby and other loved ones not hearing me, etc., i solidly believe that loved ones are the worst possible choice for therapy support. may my loved ones NEVER understand what i am going through. i channel that anger into my therapy support network where i can find other wounded warriors who understand as unfortunately as i do. this very forum is one of the places i look for such support.

keep venting, mel. normalizing these symptoms doesn't make them okay or easy to live with. we're here for you. you are not alone.