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At a loss...

Dracona
Dracona
I've been in abusive relationships since I was born... I've fought through it all.

From rape, beatings, molestation, homelessness... i kept on. got my degree. struggled through school. took care of my daughter...

Children raped and murdered in my backyard where the body was found... boyfriend almost killed then wakes up from the hospital a different person...

I just can't break this cycle no matter what I do...

now my anxiety is crippling me with the latest life has thrown at me...

I can't leave the house without feeling like i will burst out in tears or it comes in anger.

I can't breathe, i can't sleep. nothing any doctor can give me stops it..

What do I do???? what can I do??? i do art.. i ride horses.. i was working in non-profit for disabled veterans... I have tried meds... I have tried counseling for years now. Latest counselor told me there was no help for me...

I don't know what to do...
Dracona
Dracona
Funny thing is, I don't even know why I do it, cause I sure as hell don't trust people. I don't even think I like them at all anymore.
jewells1
jewells1
It may be in the "not trusting people" is the understanding and empathy of it that makes you want to try to help others.
A very good basis by the way.
hugs
The trip sounds good, good enough for a" Go Fund Me" page, or a letter of cooperative learning trip funded by them "Horses for Heroes"to spread the idea.
Making plans is a sign of hope in thinking.
Dracona
Dracona
I don't even know if its hope... I'm starting to get pissed off. For example, im basically homeless, and my mom wanted to take me to dinner for my Bday, which really triggered me cause she brought her new boyfriend and was all giddy and happy and I was like WTF im going through hell... Well she started putting me down today again and im just sick of it. between that, and the stuff with my ex im losing it. When I get pissed its like I want to attain the power it takes to be socially above them so they can never touch me again and essentially have to listen to me as their boss. But I don't abuse any power, I just want to take it from those who don't deserve it and hurt people.
Tusitalo
Tusitalo
I really relate.
The stats say victims of child abuse are victimized again 60% of the time.

I don't have much to say because I am in the same boat.
Just take it one day a time. Do one thing at a time.
Forgive yourself for your anger.
I do a lot of shit due to anger...It hurts mostly me no one else but still.
Docs have told me the same well that psychologists would not help me that I am the kind of person that has to be on meds.

I hate meds.
arfie
arfie
My reflex to reject before I can be rejected runs so deep that I do not believe I have ever given anyone the chance to say I couldn't be helped, but I do believe that has been true at more than one place in my long journey from child prostitute/disposable kid to comfortable retirement. Healing is an inside job. Others can help, but only help. The healing is up to the injured party.

I sometimes call myself, "A humanophobe." People contact is hard for me, too, at the best of times. When my life is out-of-control. . . I do believe my menagerie of traumatized animals (no horses, unfortunately) are the best support group this beaten crazy bitch wolf has ever been part of. Hope you are spending lots of time with your horses.

Gentle support while you find your way through the quagmire, Dracona. Ask your horses how to be patient with the process. They know.
Dracona
Dracona
Hello Arfie, nice to see you again, well kinda. too bad we can't be part of a gardening support group and know each other from there huh?

Yes, I am blessed with my old horse of 17 years. the weather is supposed to let up and we are going on a long ride tomorrow. Animals really are life saving.
cheesecake88
cheesecake88
Dracona, I hope you have a great ride, it is so true, Animals really are life saving!! Healing Hopes!
Dracona
Dracona
Thanks Cheesecake, Actually did have a great ride. damn old horse was hyper as hell though and I really had a workout.
arfie
arfie
This isn't a gardening support group?

Considering how many of us use gardening and animals as therapy tools, I kinda think of this as the best gardening club available. We sure study lots and lots about compost materials here.

Glad you got that ride in. My most comprehensible lessons on mood swings comes from dealing with animals in cantankerous moods. Gets me past the word wars and straight to the sensory roots.

The bio-net misses us when we are off civilizing.
Dracona
Dracona
My animals keep me sane.
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