hmmm....maybe not scared, but there is definitely always a little bit of dread, and the little voice whispering `you're going to crash hard buddy'

Hell yes....It makes me wonder..
A PTSD Doc told me is common with PTSD sufferers.

It happens to me frequently. I have flashbacks of my accident whenever I cross a street, especially when there are many cars.

Having someone I know and trust near me does help, though. Perhaps spending time with somebody else could help you feel more safe.

Lots of love and hugs! I am here for you. :)

All the time...I freak out thinking that there is NO way that things could actually stay good...that eventually, something is going to trigger & I'm going to crash & burn.

BUT...that isn't always the case. Sometimes it means that you're just learning to adjust! :)

All the way to sabotaging my own happiness and success.

The puppet shows of my CPTSD whisper constantly, "The happier I am, the further I have to fall. The more successful I am, the more sharks I'll have biting my back." Well, THEY whisper on the good days. On the bad days, the noisiest spot on the planet is between my ears.

On my best days, the days I live for, the puppets listen when I tell them to shut up. Who's the boss here?

OMG YES! I can't tell you how scared, or anxious I get that something else is going to happen, or that the other shoe is going to drop. When things are going well for me, sometimes I create drama just because that is what feels normal for me. I totally understand and can relate! I hope you find strength in your strength. Maybe if you can compare with how you feel when things are going bad and how you feel when things are going good, the good feelings will far outweigh the bad.

I do as well. I always think when things are going good..when is the other shoe gonna fall..

Oh G-d Yes! I avoid placidity like the plague. I feel like Icarus at the sight any bright success looming ahead.

My anxiety rises when things are going to well.



ladydi1961

For what it is worth, I have made some of my most important therapy breakthroughs by learning to recognize and address this angst while it is in motion in my life.

YES! I agree. With everyone.

I go along the line between Mojopaw and EM. I see that it is very common for PTSD sufferers.

Nothing else to say.

No, not the feeling of scared, but sometimes I experience flashbacks.

Yes! Yes! One of my most exhausting PTSD symptoms is scanning for danger, and when things go well I really scan. Almost like waiting for the other shoe to drop, as they say. And a few times I've gotten so tired of waiting that I sabotaged my own joy because I got tired of waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Right now I'm coming to the end of a school year where work went well for me. So instead of sabotaging myself I'm posting gratitude notes here to enjoy it. Like this one right now. We have to learn to cope with happiness just as we learned to cope with crisis.

muji

I am not sure if I get scared, but I get anxious waiting for the "curtain to fall". I question why things are going smoothly and then wonder when its going to end, instead of enjoying the moments of calm. Doesn't quite make sense does it?


Its interesting how that works.

Holly