I know exactly how you feel. It is miserable. To feel as thought there is no one to talk to, no body there who cares or willing to listen. Sometimes theres just some people I don't want to share my annoying personal problems to. This is why I began to journal. Whether online or in my notebook I try to write down how I feel because at the end, I understand myself better then anyone, but at the same time I wish someone could come and answer all the endless questions I have in my own head without being judged or criticized. Find a friend. It is necessary and it is important. You need something other than the escape through online to vent about your personal thoughts and loneliness. It has never done me any good to bottle up my feelings and I definitely know what its like to just want to be held because you feel like everything else around you is falling apart and you can't do anything about it. Find the light in the darkness and follow it. Me and you will find our way.

@searchlight @endlessthougts

It seems like you understand what I'm going through. I'll be contacting you shortly and hopefully we can go from there. I'll do my part to be a friend for sure. I'm not someone to judge or criticize so don't worry about that.

@possabilitiesLT what can I expect there?

@possibilitiesLT I went to site, and I'm a bit disturbed you're using this forum for advertisement.

You definitely have you, I can see that you care about yourself (in a good way) and you are very aware of your feelings.

Thank you, I hope that's true. It doesn't feel it to me as I'm trying to stop being alone and wonder my worth often.

I have dealt with depression for so long, that is what seemed normal. About 6 months ago, I found my magnesium was low. I have read that magnesium isn't stored by the body and a lot of people tend to be low. Either check yours or just add a magnesium supplement, I still have difficulties but depression is a lot better. Thought it might help.

I'll look into this, thanks.

I wish this website had an IM mechanic, i find the messaging system a bit slow and cumbersome. For anyone interested, there is a website called 7cups.com. They have some active chatrooms going on for a multitude of issues. You can also connect 1-on-1 with a "listener" who you can talk to at any time of the day, 24/7. I found a listener I chat with weekly. However, I came to this site cause you can't really make friends over there, or send messages to specific people like you can here.

I gave 7cups a try a few months ago. It had a lot of bugs in their app and it especially didn't have the tools to help someone become unlonely. They only seemed geared to sell you their online therapy for 100+/month. Yes, I tried listeners, and they are by definition the same one sided conversation people I don't want in my life.

I so can relate to your message, living alone is one thing but not having someone who understands and is devastating to your self esteem. I feel like such a mess. My very few friends come with conditions and seem to take advantage of me. I have a hard time standing up for myself or saying no to anyone because I fear rejection so much! I just joined DS, so I'm not sure how to connect with you but I will give it a try if I can figure it out. I have borderline personality disorder and bipolar mainly depression and anxiety. I have a low self esteem and don't feel worthy of having a true friend or partner.

Yes, that's exactly it! Including you can be surrounded by people and still be ignored when you speak up- happened to me today in a group of 8, I'd have made 9 but I don't count it seems..

I'm so here for you, we could really help each other! I send you a request and can't wait to chat!

I thought I left a comment but i guess something went wrong. What I wanted to say was that I feel that way too..... I do hope that knowing that you’re not going trough it alone helps you in some small way....I wish I can tell you that Everything will be fine....to a certain degree it will be......but that day may not be today and I know that because I feel that right now. All I can do is force a smile and pretend that everything is ok.....hopefully you have a better day......

Thank you, and yeah... Sigh

As i was reading your original post and your later comments i couldnt help but think damn sounds like me. I have gone through most of my life being alone and feeling very lonely most of the time. Even in a room full of people, im shy to begin with and being the heavy kid who lived in the middle of nowhere growing up only made things worse, i was bullied for years and eventually even outcasted by my own family and not being able to admit or talk about the priblems i have because of it. Friend me, message me if you want i'll gladly talk to you.