I am. I really am. I'm tired of living day to day, hour to hour. I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself. I have no family or friends. I've been trying to prepare myself for that moment when I try and let go. I've been trying to get my mind right so I can start , but then Somthing happens. And an argument with my boyfriend happens. Then I'm stuck in a rut feeling pathetic. Hating myself more and more. Listening to the mean things he says about me . How no one will ever want me or will ever want to love me. Or have a care in the world for me. Even during our arguments he even brings up my daughter and says I'm a bad mother. I think I need to drop him the same time I drop the heroin. It's so much bad stuff going on in my life that I wouldn't know where to begin. But not today. I'm already too depressed and down on myself to keep talking about the things that make me cry . Ill just wait until I get in my bed in the dark. Thanks everyone who took the time to read this. At least my friends here care. Thanks again every one. I love you all.Bye.
wedding in morning? Here in central time zone say 4:30am its going to be on NBCunfortunately I will be up and either driving or riding in car to sponsorship workshop in morning at about that time. Its about 120 mile drive, im meeting someone then riding with them from 5:15 until we hit quincy IL
My last drink was March 9th of this year! I’m proud of myself!