My question is how are you able to care for your da8ghter if you are addicted to heroin?

Is it possible that the heroin is the root cause of all your problems? Do you feel that your daughter needs a sober parent?

I will pray for you!

God Bless!

I don't care for my daughter. Maybe I should rephrase that.!
I love my daughter to death. And yes the heroin is the root of all my insanity. What I meant to say was , I don't ,,, um,,,, my daughter doesn't live with me. She never has. She lives with her father because of my addiction. I'm not saying that's wrong. I know that's only best for her. And I know some people say that should be motivation for me to get sober and get my daughter back. But I'm 36 years old I've been using drugs since I was 11. From the age of 20-30 I stoped drugs only to drink alcohol and smoke pot. I still consider those drugs. So all in all I have always altered my mind in some way from chemicals. And I guess what I'm saying is, I've always ran to the drugs when things weren't going good for me. I never learned my coping mechanisms. Never learned what coping skills are out there, other then , run to drugs to numb myself and escape reality. I have no support system . No family or friends. No one to give me discipline or tough love or even compassion. I'm strictly alone.
If you never been addicted to drugs then I don't expect you to fully understand what I'm saying. Only because you won't be able to. Only another addict Wil understand where another addict is coming from. It's not as easy as you may think. It really isn't , especially when your all alone in life. It's already a sad life to live. Just more pathetic when your a drug addict and living as your only friend. Well, me and my 4 year old Bull Terrier whom I consider my life partner.
And yes I feel my daughter needs her mother. I truly feel she does. But I need help because I'm not capable of helping myself I guess I need help in order to help myself. .

Please enter a drug rehab program. Please stop choosing drugs over your daughter.

I don't just plan to choose drugs over my daughter. She's in my head day and night night and day. It's when I think of her I begin to cry , hate myself and sob. And then, that's when I run to the drugs to help elevate all those sad emotions. I don't want to cry all the time . No body wants to cry all day long. And not being able to see her at all is troubling too. I haven't seen my daughter since May 13. Do u know how hard that is. Imagine for one second that was you. Put urself in my shoes. Not everyone is built Ford tough like others are.!

Why is everyone sitting here blaming her for being a bad mom??? Everyone needs to shut the hell up because they haven't walked a mile in her shoes! Addiction is a disease people, its not something you can truly control on your own. You need support from friends, family, and social circles. Not a bunch of clowns pointing their fingers at the person in distress... You all should be ashamed of yourselves for being so judgmental. I was an addict for years and learned to kick the habit but definitely haven't fully learned to cope with everything that life has thrown at me. When you are down the world just wants to keep kicking you...
There are so many things that will help you to quit, you just need to reach out to the right people. I used suboxone treatment to help me quit along with pure determination and the help of a supportive girlfriend. There are so many possibilities out there for you and I pray that you find the help you need :-D
Much love

Thank you Gamblingislethal. For the support and sticking up for me. Do you mind if I send you a friend request ? I have some questions about Suboxone.

Tomorrow is another day

Thank you Jewelz4.!

I understand what you're going through and I feel sad that you do not have a support group but this can be your support group until you physically find somebody that actually gives a s*** . Your not going to find it in that world, but you all ready know that! You did it once before...you can do it again!! Find your why, and you will conquer your dragons. I believe in you.
I will pray for you

Thank you 50ish.!. I appreciate your kindness. I don't see myself finding a support group here because the replies don't ever come soon enough. It usually takes a while before someone relies back to me. So I feel when I need the support it's not gonna come soon enough. There's this other website called www.supportgroups.com and there the comments comes really fast, I'm usually there more then I am here. But thank you for your prayers.

Have you ever been to rehab? And if not would you consider it? I started using when I was 13. No matter how hard I tried to get clean it never lasted. I couldnt stop using for my kids. I couldnt stop using after being locked up for 15 months. Even when I knew I had to UA, I couldnt stop. Well I entered a rehab in jan 2014. I've been clean and sober since Dec 30th 2013. The longest I ever accumulated before was months now I have a few years. Im 36 now. You can do it. Rehab taught me some basic tools and coping mechanisms that I was able to use and build from after entering back into the real world. Life still isn't perfect. It never will be but I'm living now.

Thank you Brentamorgan. No I've never been to a rehab and yes I would love to go. But having plain ol medical doesn't get a person far in life. That's kool your sober now. I hope your able to hold on for the rest of your life. Good luck to you. And thanks for your reply. I don't know why I'm barly seeing it now, almost a whole year later.!

Hi,

First of all Thanks for sharing your story. Addiction is a bitch and unfortunately many people do not know how to be supportive. There is a ton of misinformation out there. I work as a LMHC in MA and in a Suboxone Clinic. Consider trying suboxone, it will stop cravings and withdrawals. There are many other Medication Assisted Treatments and I find Suboxone or Sublocade to be the best. You may need to seek a harm reduction orientation of care. You may also want to consider the possibility of having a Dual Diagnosis, meaning there is underlying mental health issues that need to be addressed. I know medical treatment can be costly and what I can say is there are States that make it easier to receive necessary treatment, mostly States in New England, Maine being the least easiest, and MA being the easiest. Good Luck to you and all battling with Opioid Use.

Hi mbronnrr 76. Gosh darn, I know I'm on here like twice a month so I donyk OE why I'm barley seeing your reply now. Any who, I wouldn't doubt there are mental issues going on in here. But I've never been diagnosed or Let alone seen a doctor for anything like that. Ive been on methadone before. I liked that I didnt get sick and it worked right away. But it never did anything for my cravings. I guess that's were I would of came in. I can't think I'm not gonna have to put any effort into my sobriety being a reality . right ? I gotta participate in this battle to keep my life somehow .but I wanted to ask you, what is harm reduction of orientation of care ? I've never heard of that before ?.! Thank you for your comment. Hear from you again soon. Bye.