@Awesome, thanks. I had to finish my semester.

Also, my libido remains in the tank.

i am so freaking frustrated. I swear that my husband is just embarrassed to be seen in public with me. he NEVER wants to go do anything. on the rare occasions that we go somewhere, all he wants to do is go to a movie theater.

@Des, Sorry. Is his health OK? Is he depressed? How would he describe his situation?

horatio----------- he is bi-polar 2. He is on medication and also have xanex for his anxiety attacks. However, he does not handle stress well at all. Our ceiling started leaking again and we had to tear it out to see where the leak was coming from to get it fixed. This has been an on-going problem in this house, so i kinda shrug it off. Actually, i am kinda excited it happened again so we can finally get it TOTALLY fixed. But something like that will totally ruin his day and he will be nothing but pissed afterward. he is also becoming increasingly reclusive. well, not totally. Just when doing things with me. He has friends over to our house all the time. Is having a large group over on saturday in fact. and he goes to a friends house to play poker almost every wed night. But going out with me? nope. I am telling you. he is just embarrassed to be seen with me. He doesnt want me to go out alone either. He just wants me to stay home.

@Des, That is rough all around. I hope that he keeps on his medicines. I wonder if he feels less like a man as a result and if you just by being his wife remind him of his inadequacies.

Horatio, that seems sort of assumptive. I would think a doctor or therapist who has been treating a person can explain why they act a certain way.

Des, have you asked him if he feels embarrassed to be seen with you?

@MsViv, no assumptions: just wondering.

viv----------yep. i have asked time and time again. He just get's mad at me for bringing it up or will turn it around into something else. Sometimes he says it is because HE doesnt want to be seen. last night he said it was because he was older than everyone else and didnt want to party like they do. sometimes he says he is tired. other times he is just too pissed off to do anything. last night he said that he would rather just relax at home than do anything. He doesnt seem to understand that i am STUCK at home all the time. being home is not relaxing to me. All i can see is that dishes need to be done, what room needs to be vacuumed, meals need to be cooked, etc.

it is also frustrating to hear all of his stories from fun things he did. college parties, when he lived in dorms, getting wasted with friends, one night stands, just all his hilarity. Meanwhile, i sit here with nada. I got knocked up at 19, was married by 22 and had my second kid at 23. All i have done is community college and that is all i will ever get a chance to do. I have never even LIVED alone. I went from my mom's to an apartment with 3 room-mates, back to my moms, and then in with him. I never thought i would care, but now i am realizing all of the things that i have missed out on and i dont have much time before i am too old to go out and do anything.

Des, I think you ned to discuss with hubby a day of the week that can be yours to do what you want. I have a friend whose husband takes over all parenting duties for at least the first half of every Sunday. She sleeps in, and then goes and does stuff SHE wants to do. It seems to give them a good balance, and she needs that break.
I never had that. I did 98% of the parenting, and my ex did whatever he wanted all the time. I resented that, among many other things. He would never have agreed to taking over for a day. Hell, HE slept in whenever I had a migraine and I still did all the work while in horrible pain. But your hubby is not a prick, so I think if you just kindly but firmly tell him you need some time to get away, he'll listen.

i will have school soon and he will have to watch the kid's. that will help. i am just frustrated in general right now. I just worked out a lot though, and that helps.

des, I've had issues with my wife's health making it hard for me to get around a lot, cause I feel I should be there for her. And mostly I am. But occasionally, I'll get out without her. Hiking with a friend or two mainly.
But the thing is, you need to do things that you like to do. If he can join you, great. If not, you still need a life outside the home. Not every night, but sometimes. The more you enjoy life, the better you'll be able to be there for him.

and now all my frustrations have moved on to someone else...today is not a good day...is it bed-time yet?

Husband should be leaving in two hours to drive to me. I'm staying about an hour and a half away from him because I have a food aggressive puppy in a boot camp program at their house. Been fun but miss my husband!!!

Loving the music selection on my The 69 Eyes station on Pandora. Nothing but goth rock and Finnish rock. \m/\m/

I love Angel's new profile pic.

More snow on the way today. Yuck!