Hello, I have been struggling for a long time. I have been with my fiancé for 8 years now. We have been through a lot together. I helped her gain custody of her 3 children shortly after we meet. Things were great at first and became difficult. I have a great relationship with my step children, honestly I never call them that I just say my kids. We had a lot of struggles through the years, mostly financial. We also have a 5 year old together and he is such a happy boy. My fiancé’ has struggled with depression and anxiety her whole life. It does at times make things very very tough. I for the most part am the calming voice she needs and I can usually get her back on track. She often treats me like I’m irritating her or I'm doing something wrong or I have failed. She has never really been there for me when I needed someone, but I'm a pretty strong person. I am always trying to do things to make her happy or cheer her up. I bring her flowers every pay day, I clean, cook, run the kids, do laundry, on and on. She has been treating me so bad lately and it seems to happen most around the holidays. I just can’t do it anymore, I don’t feel like its fair. And when she ignores me her kids seem to ignore me too like I'm the bad guy. Never has she ever apologized or thought she has done anything wrong. I always seem to just to end it. And I'm not proud, I don’t really care win / lose. I just want to take things for what they are worth, learn and move on. But I feel like a doormat anymore, I know I do too much and I probably brought this on myself. But with the 4 kids its very hard to think of me. And I'll be honest. I am a very calm, patient person. But after awhile its hard to be and I'll address it with her which usually leads to a fight and then I'm ignored. I just don’t know what to do. Every time I seem excited about something, this happens and then its just getting through the day..
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