Oh, Angela, so sorry to hear of your Pastor’s parents. Prayers for all. I hope you are feeling better today.

Here I am, up at 3am. I took a peek at Facebook , which is so hard for me on this holiday. I see so many friends with pictures of themselves with their fathers, and describing all the wonderful things about them. For me, hey, my dad hit and yelled at me all the time. Happy father’s day! Plus, I get the added fun of PTSD dreams. Sorry to complain. It’s just not a good day for me.

I do have the pleasure of watching my husband be a good father, along with my son and son in law. That is a true blessing, so I’ll focus on that.

Hubby is all packed. We will go to church this morning, then come home for a bit. Then off to the airport.

Hope to see everyone here again today. You are all such good friends.

Going to try to make myself go out to church today, i got 2 plus hours till id be picked up. My legs kept cramping up all night and i have a slight migraine but hoping coffee and my breakfast burrito i made helps that. Took my meds for pain and my muscle relaxer. I will see how i am in an hour.

Ida i understand what you mean about fathers day, partly. My *sperm donor* all he deserve to be called was awful to me and its why they think i have Borderline Personality Disorder. PLUS part of my PTSD a big part of it. But i celebrate for the man that married my mom when i was 6 and fought till i was 10 to stop visitation and at 13 asked to adopt me. (and my brother) and has never treated me like a step kid in my life or abused me in any way. For him i celebrate. I wish you could of had happy memories like that :( Dad wants A&W for fathers day, going to be 97 out so were not cooking out and i told mom since dads the only one who can operate the grill why not take him out and grill out on a non holiday for him.

To me having a dad that chose me and adopted me by choice means so much more to me than just a dad. This day is special for us.

Nervous about going to church, i dont know who will be doing the service due to Pastors parents accident and his mom dying :( Our church is a family though its a smaller church and feels like a family. We always pull together. When my husband died all the kids in children's church made me cards i got about 30 that day. That made me cry so hard and they wanted to bring them to me one by one and each child gave me a hug. Now you see why i been going back to church lately.

Angela, so sorry to hear about your pastors mom. Your church sounds amazing, I am so glad you have been going back, I hope today isn't too hard for you. Enjoy A&E with your dad.

ida, I'm glad you were able to celebrate Father's day yesterday at your daughters. I hope your back pain is better.

Blue, I know it gets old having your mom follow you around so much, but I am glad that she has you. She is very lucky! Man I bet that vog alert changes often now. That must get old. I have no idea what Ukrainian Borscht is, but I'm sure it's delicious if you're making it. Hope today is good for you.

Autumn, I'm glad you were able to do Costco with your partner. I hope your pain lowered some and you were able to get some rest and sleep.

milily, It sounds like a lot of us have PTSD when it comes to screaming. I hope you have fun with your brother.

Fantod, I would be all about a chocolate camp, I might even travel for that one. LOL. I hope you can swim when it gets too hot, and enjoy the yummy brownies.

Hi Lilmiss, big hugs and wishing you the best weekend possible.

I stayed pretty busy yesterday so my treat was a yummy cupcake from Gigi's. They are so good. That of course gave me major heartburn and indigestion but the second I drank apple cider vinegar it went away, thank goodness.

I just made my chocolate loaf. I'm going to get ready for church. Afterwards we are going swimming at Grandma's and then going out for Pizza for Father's day. It's really not a lot, but it sure seems like it to me. I got a lot done yesterday so hopefully with us being gone this afternoon and some at dinner, I won't have much to do when I get home besides showers and clothes for tomorrow.

I hope everyone has a good day.

Big purrs, all. WOrn out. Much love and prayers.

Good morning, Everyone! Don't have time to go through all the messages. But I hope everyone have a wonderful day, no matter what we're going through. Let's all make it a Fantastic Day! Love all my DS Friends here..... Pam

Fantod, I've been waking up way too early too. I hope your back is doing better today. That cream sounds pretty good, I might want to try it some day. It will have to wait since I just forked out money on Amazon ordering some more Alteril and a bag of hypoallergenic cat treats for Silver (cat treats is how I get them to take their chemo).

Autumn, CostCo is awful on my pain, it's too big a place to get around. Try using one of those electric buggies next time, it will save you from your pain climbing up to 8, 9, or 10. Enjoy sushi tonight. My husband bought a sushi rolling kit a few months ago so we can roll our own at home. :)

Milily, glad to hear you're at the last stages of that awful virus. I imagine you haven't gotten any good sleep since being that sick.

Ida, I hope your pain has come down today. Sorry about the headache and having to continue with PT. I hope they change your treatment, since it's obviously making you feel worse. I'm with you about Father's Day... no warm fuzzy memories there for me... I try to forget about it and ignore this day. I just take it as a day for those who do / did have a loving relationship with their dad, not for me. I'm skipping church today because of the Father's Day shindig.

Angela, probably one of the assistant pastors or deacons will do the service. I hope you can enjoy yourself despite.

Twins, that chocolate loaf sounds so yummy.... I haven't made any in a while. Ukrainian Borscht is basically a soup with diced / shredded beets, cabbage, potatoes, and carrots. Some people add ground sausage, but I used ground wild boar this time. And other times I have made it vegetarian. I also use homemade veg stock. Either way, it's soooo good. Something about it feels nutritious and whole. Two events in the same day is a lot for *us*. So yeah, I imagine you'll ready to collapse half way through the day. Hugs

The Borscht came out really good. But I should have started an hour earlier. I had everything chopped up and ready to go earlier in the day and had it waiting in little bags. But while I thought the beets were softening (in the rice cooker) while I browned the wild boar in a pan and made the tomato sauce, it turned out for some reason the machine had never started boiling the beets. Found them cold. So I had to eat something else while waiting it finished cooking an hour late. I can't eat late because I'll get a horrible stomach ache.

My husband forgot about our skype appt to go over the budget and I wasn't able to get ahold of him via phone. I hope he'll be available to do it today, I hate pushing things off.

The church is having a big Father's Day shindig where the women are cooking / BBQ and serving the men. Because I didn't have a relationship with my abusive narcissistic father, those kind of events really aren't my thing, so I'll be skipping it... and hope to head out to a nice beach instead. I'll bring my Bible and read a chapter out there.

Morning all. I am in extreme pain. I slept with my tens unit all night. Got about 2 hours sleep and that was on the couch before I went to bed. Blue I will definitely use the electric cart from now on. Angela my prayers for your pastors dad and all effected.
I hope you all have a blessed day. Fathers day is hard for me too. My birth father was not involved in raising me and my step father was my abuser. I just try to stay busy.

Hello Leo,
I understand how you feel for sure. Has been hot and humid here for days. I kind of feel monsterious today as well. focusing is a problem it seems. Hope your days get better.

Hi all, I'm still alive but in massive pain from stress and lack of sleep and not taking breaks the past couple days because when I'm not focused on what I'm doing is when the bad memories start creeping in. My body hates me and my skin has really blown up, I'm not sure if the steroid ointment is going to be enough (and it's rx, about the strongest available). Hugs to everyone

Autumn, sorry your pain is still up. I hope you can distract your self today... maybe a nice bath and a movie? Hugs

Miki, sounds like you may need an oral steroid at this point. I have had rashes off and on since high school, stumped docs too. I have tried every ointment on the planet -nothing. They used to be really bad with large patches all over my body, but now they are small little pink dots. *shrugs* Sending some fresh aloe your virtual way. I hope they one day figure out what causes all that.

I told my mom as soon as I'm ready I'm heading out to a beach on the west side of the island (1.5 hrs away). She tried talking me into taking her... I told her if she comes then I'll drop her off somewhere that's NOT my beach, and pick her up on the way home. Told her I have spent every day this past week with her: when I leave for errands she comes too, when I stay home she is home with me too (even has to sit next to me and watch my movies, ugh). To the pool? She came too!

Her response: said she doen't want to be left somewhere by herself so she has changed her mind in coming along. GOOD. Told her I need a BREAK from her! I asked her if she had reapplied to the senior transportation services (it was expired), she said she has. I told her I was wondering because she's been completely depending on me for rides everywhere since coming back from her trip a month ago. She said they are short of drivers. I understand that, but I can't be your chauffeur 24/7 and you must try and schedule what you can with them.

OK, I'm going to water the garden and pack my beach bag :). I wish I could take all of you with me.

We only have one Pastor, small church. Pastors son did the sermon, hes a history teacher and did an excellent job i was very impressed. Was hard sitting there with my pain plus the a/c wasn't working right upstairs only in the basement and no one could contact pastor right now. He and his wife couldn't fly out till today so he boarded around when the church service started. I am beyond exhasted and this week is goign to be hell

Angela, I am praying that you have a great week. I know it's been hard the last few days, but God knows what you are going through and it will get better. Praying for your Pastor's family. May God comfort their hearts during this difficult time.



Pam

Blue, I wish I could go with you to the beach...LOL Sounds like fun! I hope you had a really nice time today. Sorry, about your mom's situation. I hope that they will hire some more people at the Senior transportation that way to give you a break. I know the feeling driving in pain. It is very difficult. I get Anxiety and Panic Attacks and my fatigue gets worse when I am driving....... Lots of hugs your way... Pam

Angela, so sorry for your pastor's parents. I will be praying for them. It scares me that my 81 yr. old dad still drives. My mom knows that he shouldn't still be driving for many valid reasons, but doesn't insist on driving instead. She is 79, but in very good health, physically and mentally, compared to my dad. I'm afraid that they will meet their demise in a car accident with my dad driving. Anyways, it's been very hot and humid here in southwest Michigan. I had a good week-end though. The frigid cold triggers my fibro more than the heat and humidity. Well, I should say rather than heat, dry heat isn't bad at all...but the high humidity does affect me. Still had a good week-end though. Went to a friend's son's graduation party on Saturday and worked on Sunday. Now it's Monday, and I work again today. I only work part-time because I'm on disability for fibro and bipolar. I'm really not sure if I'm on disability for fibro for sure though. Twin, you mentioned that fibro isn't always classified as a disease. I have a friend's daughter who has fibro and has applied for disability twice and has been turned down. I'm not sure if that's her only medical condition though. I went to the mayo clinic for a second opinion for my fibro diagnosis, and they confirmed it. I sent in my medical records for the fibro and the bipolar and I was approved my second time when a lawyer filed for disability for me. Anyways, all of us know that fibro is a very disabling disease. I hope everyone has a good week ahead. Take care.

Catherine