I'm so sorry. I know what it feels like when no one seems to care. Sometimes they really don't care, other times they do and just don't know how to show it. They might as well not care if they can't show it really.

No one deserves to be pimped out against their will. You are in charge of your own body and if sex or sexual favors are not what you want to do then he has no right to pressure you into it. You are worth so much more than being forced into something you don't want to do.

I've struggled with cutting for a while now. At first I didn't k now why. It took a lot of therapy to figure out it was one of my coping skills. I'd cut so I didn't kill myself. And eventually I learned I was doing it because it was the only way I knew how to express my emotions.

I can't give you great advice or fix your problems or anything like that, but I understand a bit of what you're going through and I'm here if you need to talk.

I think you should write more on your proflie. We can know you more. Maybe you will meet a nice guy here! We will be you friends.

By all means drop all contact with this person; he does not care about you at all.

I am so sorry that things did not work out the way you intended.

gentle hugs

I think that you are going through a lot right now and I commend you for reaching out and talking to us. I have struggled with all the things you mentioned especially the cutting. But I have been clean from that for a few years. It was one of my coping skills too and sometimes, especially this time of year, think about going back to it a lot. I also did a lot of drugs for years and smoked cigarettes and drank which I am clean from. I agree that you are in charge of your own body and sexual encounters so just try to remember that. I am now a Wellness Coach through my state and help other people like us in support groups and stuff as well as help myself. I still struggle sometimes. But things (sooo clique) will get better if you allow them to. Private message me if you want. I would be glad to lend an ear! Keep posting!

I am really sorry that you are having to go through this bad time alone. People often ask me about my "support group", I say who is that? People ask me if my family will support me but all I can say is for the past ## years, no - they did not even understand why I was a basket case wanting to die much less be "the wind beneath my wings" support. What is support? Who teaches that? I learned how to make someone co-dependent on me thinking I was helping them but then when they saw the real me, Poof, they were gone. I am now a full circle around looking at my supporters for this year. I actually made a goal to get rid of some medications (I take 36 most days) or at least reduce the amounts. I just got out of a really good psyche ward that gave a lot of thought into rearranging my negative thoughts and put me on one mood drug. I am amazed at the difference. I had put away all thought of any mood drugs helping me because none of them at that time did! Now I am chemically "happy" and it shows in what I do and attempt to do. Maybe you can see your psyche doctor and he can put you on a mood drug that fits you! Think about it! As for the support group, I'm starting to be less picky about who I ask to support me (and yes, I ask because most people just here about me and never think to support me - so I'm asking people to be on my support team! And like I said, I'm less picky - so this person let me down last time, hey I can for give and I will forget and I will ask again! Maybe they will let me down again or maybe they will have grown in the meantime and be the "wind beneath my wings.

Never give up (and yes, I've tried to give up 5 times not counting all the times I just wanted to but God has a plan for me and He love You and has a plan for you also!

Tell that looser to take a hike, that you are going for help! You go girl!