I'm so sorry for the way you are feeling. I know what it's like to be tired all the time and then tired of being tired. It just seems to go round and round. I can tell you a couple of things that helped me out of that cycle. I had to make a point to get to bed by 9:00 pm and then I would spend an hour reading for a bit and then doing breathing exercises where I would breath in for 4 counts, hold for 4 counts and then exhale for 4 counts. I would do this in the beginning for a good 15-20 minutes before I would either realize my mind and body had relaxed or I would realize I fell asleep when I woke up the next morning. Which is the next thing I did. I set my alarm and get up everyday at 6:00 am. NO MATTER WHAT. My body needed a routine. It's been a few years now but this is still my habit. Some days I feel great, other days it's a real effort to get going but I get going nonetheless. On those days I find myself needing to take a little power nap (never more than 30 minutes) sometime during the day.
The other thing that helped was I needed to play around with my diet. I found that some foods zapped my energy while others seemed to fuel me. The one I found the most helpful was cutting out most dairy products and of course, sugar. These were two of my favorite things. I also increased my water drinking. I was never a fan of water but staying hydrated was a huge boost to my energy level.
I hope these suggestions might help and just know that I'll be praying for you. Praying you find the strength, comfort and peace of mind you are looking for.

I am sorry to hear this. I sincerely hope you find something that helps. My only thought is to reach out to the medical profession. You might benefit from TMS or maybe ECT.

I was reading something yesterday...basically says...we need to come up with a new normal.

Rather then letting ourselves hit our usual bottom...we need to catch ourselves way before then. Then come up with another new normal.

It seems like you're doing just that now!

Sending you light and love!

Imnotalone is right, routines are so underrated when it comes to mental health. Its proven that a set routine does wonders for us. I personally have yet to master it but i do know that when my routine is out too much i feel stressed out and exhausted. I also realised junk food makes me feel rubbish.
It sounds like your at the point of needing to see a doctor. I dont know if your on medication now but sometimes a sleeping tablet for a few nights(they arent recommended long term) can help you to get into a better routine and help you rest.
Take a bubble bath before and read in bed these things will help you relax and unwind.
Hope things start to look up. Sending much love and positive vibes. X

Thank you everyone for the help. I do appreciate it. Yeah I get the whole routine thing. The problem is that’s turning into my daily routine. Sleep till noon, wake up and start the day. I even stood up all night and day once thinking I would be beat by 8-9 and I would fall asleep. Nope didn’t work. Still stood up till 3-4 in the morning and just slept till 2-3. I eat the junk food late night too and the doesn’t help one bit. Does anyone ever feel tired but it’s too early to sleep but by the time it’s bed time your wide awake. I tried ambium once and it scared the heck out of me. Lol. I’d rather never sleep than take another one of those.

You mentioned coffee. The coffee can be keeping you from going to sleep early.

Also, being physically active early in the day, or working, etc., can help you to get on a more manageable sleep/wake time.

ive been the same way as ur describing as well and its hard and sometimes it feels like I cant even fake a smile anymore. I think I feel sorta the same way as you do. your not alone

Please work hard to slay those negative thoughts and replace them with positive affirmations.
The happiest people are those who are conscious of their spiritual need. The best friend anyone can have is God, who provides wonderful help in his Word, the Bible. Psalms 34:18 "God is close to the brokenhearted;
He saves those who are crushed in spirit.