I feel that way a lot. talk to me.

I have PTSD and I think of suicide a lot.

This number always helps me. 800-273-8255

I'm thinking suicide right now. Lately it's all the time. I look at trees and think hum is that one strong enough to hold my weight. I'm just confused

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I can relate as I have struggled with major depression for many years. Please remember that things can and will turn around for you eventually. It may take more intensive therapy and medication, but it’s better than giving up on life.

As hard as it can be, I used to bee in that same dark hole and it nearly killed me due to my 3 suicide attempts. Then my uncle commuted suicide. This was terrible but it also made me realise how much pain it caused me and how much pain it would cause my family if I took my own life. Getting help is the best thing you can do. I wish you all the best, xoxo

I called my councilor and left a message asking if there is a medication for me to help.

I know I won't be cured over night but I thought I was doing OK. I was making progress no self harm and boom here I am again write my problems on here. I feel like such a cry baby.

You’re not a crybaby. You are truly suffering inside and everyone here can probably relate. I hope you can find peace through your counselor and possibly medication.

The thing about Depression is that its not cureable, it's treatable, but it doesn't go away. So you may have days, weeks, months, years of good times and then the dark time rolls in. Its not your fault, not caused by anything you do or don't do, it's just brain chemistry. This is why continuous Treatment is so important, so that the good and bad aren't so up and down, so that you can reach a point of stability. The way to do that is with Meds and Therapy. And you don't stop just because you feel better, all that does is tank all the hard work you've done.

The other thing Depressed folks have to remember is bad days here and there are normal, every one had them whether they have a Mental Illness or not....so don't panic every time you have a bad day, sometimes its just a bad day.

As for meds to help with self-harm, there aren't many. Lithium can help with urges, but doesn't work on everyone. The way to deal with Self-harm is learning healthy coping skills to replace the bad ones, doing DBT Therapy and things of that nature. It's not easy because you have to retrain your brain on how it deals with stress and anxiety, but it's worth it to stop the self-harm.

Everyone has good advice here, I'm down in that hole today myself, I just CAN'T focus on my job, I just want to stay drunk right now, so after reading this, it was helpful to me, the advice, I took my medication, sometimes I just forget. I'm really really down.

Nothing is wrong with you. You are going through a hard time.

I’m only 14 and I’ve tried suicide four times. It’s not fun. It’s horrible and it scares everybody in your life. My girlfriend was horrified when she found out. It’s not the answer though most people think it is. I know it isn’t but I still cut because of the hurting and the voices. Don’t cut, it only leaves scars that you’ll regret later on.

I think chaining ourselves to certain ages as landmarks for when we should have it all together or when we should not be susceptible to inner demons gives us false security and a harder fall towards disappointment. With that said, you are not worse than the rest of us...what you're battling is real and it does need to be addressed. No shame or embarrassment necessary. I absolutely agree, you should pursue further counseling and maybe even reach out for a second opinion, if you feel the current support is falling a bit short. I'm sorry you're experiencing this physical and internal pain. My thoughts are with you and I hope you're able to find a sense of [permanent] relief soon.

No crybaby, been there and done that too and yes on three of my own attempts to let myself off easy. The strongest thing I’ve ever had to do was face myself and honestly pickup the phone and ask for help. No that helps not been easy to get or make effective but I’m getting there and like I said that reaching out and asking for help shows how really strong you are. We all deserve a hand and sometimes it’s that little extra push needed to get going but once we do get started it’s tough to hold us back. Very best luck in all of your endeavors especially homefinding!!