There a lot of things I could say and clarify from my initial post that would make me look like less of a crazy skank. But I'm tired of the whole thing at this point. It's done. Thanks for the input everyone, good night.

I one that often feels a break after relationship is necessary. I can see how this time could be easily mixed up honestly. I have never done a 9am date myself. I hope you feel better.

@Ghostwolf04:

"Or you can just not worry about it because people who have kids hate them and are miserable anyway"....

I don't know if you have a screwed up view of parenting or if you hang around with people who have a screwed up view of parenting.....but that's a pretty screwed up and inaccurate point of view you have towards having kids.

GhostWolf, those weren't my words. Save them for the person who actually said them. I would love to have kids at some point.

Anytime I ever went out looking for a relationship the relationships were disastrous. After the second bad one, I had to take my kids and hide out from him at a very remote location in the desert. My sister kept trying to get her girlfriend to come out to her place so the two of us could go out together and maybe each meet somebody while she watched my kids. I had no desire to go to a bar because the last time I had been to one this older man had bought me a drink and while I was up dancing he slipped something in it that made me very sick after two sips from the straw, all the while he was trying to get me to leave with him. Luckily I was with someone who had this guy she had been talking to, carry me out to her car. Anyway, I turned down my sister's offer and told her that if I was meant to be with someone he would come to me. She laughed and told me that nobody would ever come out there (I mean the place where I was living was really out in the sticks). Four months later, a friend of the family had came out to see me and he had two guys with him. Right away there was a mutual attraction with one of them. After about a month, him and I got together, eventually got married and had a very good relationship for 18 years. The moral to this story is that if it is meant to be then it will happen when you least expect it. Don't try to make it happen!

Thanks again everyone for the insights. I think sometimes it's when you're at your lowest point that you get clarity, and the clarity I've gained equates to the realization that I've been doing this wrong. Time to recoil and regroup. I DO come over as a desperate sex fiend. It was a misunderstanding, but that's NOT why I felt so much rage. And yes, I HAVE been forcing it. I don't know how best to proceed with my desire to find someone, so until I do, I'm going to sit it out for a bit.

Also, FYI, I work from 12pm-9pm, and frequently later. I told him this and asked if we could meet sometime in the morning around 9. He said yes, I thought it was odd at the time since I know he had said he worked typical business hours, but I didn't think to investigate more. Clearly, neither did he. I realize it was a misunderstanding. But just so everyone knows, that's why.

A couple things. It was probably an honest mistake on his part. If he works 9am- ???, maybe a convenient time to meet is 9pm.

Also, most Starbucks are quiet at that hour so it could be nice to chat.

Well I explained the reason for the misunderstanding. I get now that he wasn't trying to screw me over. I've said this already. I'm not a fucking moron.