Hi, I guess it’s normal to have those types of feelings when someone close to you passes away. I’ve felt similar myself. It’s not the best time to make a decision like that. I’ve thought about ending it all but eventually things calmed down. I also hurt myself with substances for many years trying to escape reality. I can tell you that it doesn’t help.

I know the pain must really hurt. But its not worth ending your life over. There are many people that would be willing to help you and talk you. Just please dont harm yourself. The pain wont last forever, I promise.

I know one of the therapy they use is having dogs or puppies for comfort. Go volunteer at animal sherlters. You can social with animals for free. Of course, you can aways buy one.See a councelor. There are councelors speicalies with past away love ones.

Another thing: There are psychics that can talk to the dead. A famous one is John Edward. He is expensive. People that had die, their bodies had die, but their souls are still here.

Your life is a gift from the creator,or creators, I had to realized that as well. Be strong even in the face of loss. You 're not alone. Even thought two people you treasured isn't before your eyes, it doesn't mean they cease to exist. I lost my father, I felt the moment he left his physical body, It was so painful. The people who leave us , want us to live well. You owe that to yourself ,and them. It's been many day I wanted to die, but also on those day , a strength came to me to live. Our purpose in this world sometimes is bigger than our pain. Your existence is relevant to others.

Sorry to hear that you are grieving :(. It sounds like it has been months since the death of your Uncle, and your grandfather has opened a new wound when you were most likely just beginning to heal. Double-Whammy. It should get a little bit easier to live life as time goes on. Sometimes it won't get better, but you will learn to live with the pain and find joy. There will always be joy in your future if you hold on. It could be a baby smiling at you on the street, or someone buying you your morning coffee in the drive-thru. Hold on and I promise, I promise eventually things will get better.

I myself am trying to work up the finances and the nerve to start therapy. It's something I suggest if you can afford it. It's not normal for us humans to have to go through things alone, and sadly, these days, people who are trustworthy are hard to come by.

Coming from someone who has hurt themselves in the depth of anxiety, pain and loss, don't do it... I see the scars on my leg and can't bear to look at them. They are ugly, great big scars and definitely not something you want people noticing. People are judgmental and vicious, and as much as the stigma around mental health is becoming less, depression and self harm is still very much looked down upon and socially scrutinized. I have had people ask me about the scars when I worse shorts, I said a tree branch, to which they replied, "you sure about that?"...

I know you don't care right now, but try not to scar your body for life. I have, and when you come out of the other side, you will wish the marks weren't there.

I have scars on both wrists. When people ask about them, I explain that is was deep in the throes of active alcoholism and mental illness. Then I tell them " that was then, this is now", that i have recovered from both illnesses and life is damn good.

It does get better if you are willing to pur forth the effort necessary to make the required positive changes.

Thank you for sharing. My deepest condolences for your losses. It is difficult to lose a loved one, but we keep their memory alive in us. Please do stay in the fight, so that also more will know of them as they know of you. Thank you and God Bless.

I am sorry. My grandmother died this week and I feel the same. I have cut myself, gotten really close to kill myself, but none of that has helped. I do not think it will help with you either.

In my journey, I had to learn how to separate depression and grief. My parents died 9 months apart while in my early 20's. I had depressive episodes from early childhood. We need to do the grief work, which is often best done with a group. Many churches offer them at no charge. As others have said, grief is a slow process, so truly this new one while still healing from your uncle's loss is a heartbreaker. My big sister, my rock, passed a year ago this month. Tears every day of the six weeks leading up to her first anniversary. We will be here with you through this journey. Comforting hugs.

I'm so sorry that you are feeling so hopeless and that your grief is so deep. This speaks to the depth of love that you have for your loved ones. Think about how they would feel if you were to harm yourself. Think about what you could do with your life to honor them and their memories. Grief is something that each and every person will go through, so you are not alone. The process is very different for each and every person, but it is possible to come out on the other side and still live a life of purpose and honor. You may be able to join a grief group, if you goggle Griefshare.com. It will help you recognize that most of what you feel is pretty normal. You will also meet people who are going through the same things and that you are not alone. If you are ever in crisis or distress, here is the National Suicide Lifeline-1-800-273-8255.

Hugs. Losing loved ones is awful.

I'm so terribly sorry for your loss. My sincere condolences. September 1st was would have been my grandma's (my mum-mum), 91st birthday. She was the person I loved more than life itself. She was neglected, isolated from everyone, etc. I didn't get to see her until she was almost ready to go. I saw her but now she is with the angels because she was an angel. The nicest, kindest, most selfless person I've ever met. I do take after her in a lot of ways. My parents are both asshole's. But I miss her so much every day. I look at her picture everyday, things trigger the grief like right now and then it feels like I'm learning about her passing all over again. It's like never ending grief. When I go to the cemetery, I talk to her like she's standing right in front of me. I think like bird that just flew over me or that beautiful butterfly or dragonfly that she's looking over me. Telling me it's OK, I'm good. I'm living in the beautiful nature. It's gonna take some time but it's really hard especially when you're already suffering from depression, suicide, anxiety. It just amplifies it times 10
But be strong girl. I hope you feel better. I hope you get through this. Don't do anything to yourself we're all here for you.