Depression Support Group
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Well I can’t take this crap anymore as soon as I can get a hold of a gun I’m ending it.... I’m tired of the kingdom of God... I am tired of all it’s wrong doing it does to me... I am tired of life... 5 years and I will be able to buy my own...but if I get a hold of a weapon before then or see some other means of doing it I will... I lost the best girl of my dreams and now I will not”move on” I will not do anything of the sort instigated bullshit...I hate God and all his believers!!!!!
So are you saying in life when you hit a rough patch- use a weapon-then you are putting yourself
on the same level as the ones you hate. Lets talk about it- you owe yourself at least that much that eager
listeners want to hear you out.What did she do? What exactly fueled the B/Up
(No offense to the people who believe in him. My mom is born again and I believe everyone in entitled to their beliefs but I think this is the last thing this guy wants to hear right now) but please I know some of these things aren’t what you want to hear but at least everyone here is trying something. We’re all total strangers and yet we’re all trying so hard to get you to do something that won’t even affect our lives! And who best to try and help then people who have been In your exact situation and feeling! Just breathe and try really hard and think about it. You can end it now and it can all be over. No more pain. But it’s also black. No more happiness either. No more friends. No more nothing. I know because I’ve overdosed and died a few times and when I woke up sure I was pissed off cause I really wanted to die. But after thinking about it and seeing how it was... it sucked! I was thinking about not all the pain I left behind but all the happiness I knew I’d never have again. Seeing my family. Even Facebook stalking my ex I told you about lol or never talking to him again even though we’re not together. We will be some day if I keep up this very slow process of being friends :/ lol but all the smiles and laughs I’ve yet to have I’ll never know. So just think about it. Do you really want to give up all the good things in life just because one big really shitty thing happened? If you do then none of us can stop you. But think about it. You gave yourself 5 years. Anyone can kill them selves if they really want to but you have yourself 5 years. I think deep down and subconsciously you want to at least give it a try and see what this crazy fucked up world has to offer.
Your pain is evident and it may take a long time, but it will pass. It is a process and you just have to be in it right now. I know that we can all tell you whatever we think is the right thing to tell you but, ultimately, you are going to do whatever it is that you want to do. Though I would ask that you reconsider your decision. I understand that you may feel that she was the "best". And maybe she was. But she is not the only "best" there is out there. Try to sort things out into mental piles; keep, use, and discard. Take from this what you need to morph into a different version of yourself. Find something in this to motivate you to be better because there is always room for improvement. Go through the motions, feel the pain, deal with it. But then brush yourself off and get back to your growth. You may have bad days. moments, whatever, but as time passes you will notice that the "bad" is not as bad as it was before. It's okay to be angry but don't allow it to blind you or cripple you.
And on another note, whatever you think about God doesn't change the fact that He does love you.
You are not alone.