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The ups and downs are brutal...

Screwed_Up
Screwed_Up

This emotional roller coaster that Im on right now is an exhausting ride to be on. One day I'm depressed and down in the dumps so bad that I can barely find the will to get out of bed and take care of my business. It will go from missing my ex so bad that tears just keep steady rolling down my cheek then go to an anger, rage, and resintment so bad that I want to do some "OJ" type of shit. Then it goes to feeling guilty and remorseful, then sometimes to numbness, then back to depression. Then here and there I find myself actually laughing as I watch something on TV. But the next night, Im so sad, I cant even focus on a TV show. And the worst part of this ride Im on, is its so unpredictable and I dont know when it will end and let me the hell off. But I am continuing to stick to the no contact thing. Its been 2 weeks since I went fully N/C. Before that I would lash out at her through email or since she has my number blocked, I would use a number spoofing app to get around it. But the lashing out only seemed to make it worse. So I guess why Im posting this tonight. A way to vent my fustration over these unpredictable emotions instead of resorting back to lashing out at her. I just feel insane and unstable at times and feel like Im not in control of my own emotions. 

AdelynRene
AdelynRene
I am glad that you came here to vent. I can certainly relate to the level of insanity you speak of, but I still haven't found the answers other than just to avoid those types of relationships for the time being. *big hugs*
Nicholas1993
Nicholas1993
I'm right there with you man. No contact gets easier. Write out your feelings. It's odd but it helps. Whatever is in your head just write it out. It will give you an outlet.

We are all sad in breakups so you are normal. For mine, like you I couldn't enjoy anything. I sat around and moped. For me, it got better around 3 to 4 weeks. I have weak moments. but decided to work on me.

There are 5 stages and you cycle back and forth though them. Grief and anger are tough ones. You'll get there.

Focus on you. Start trying to let go of the past. No-one is perfect. She's not the one.
ilovetacos804
ilovetacos804
Try and keep busy with friends that can get you out of the house. The roller coaster of emotions are just that, eventually you will start to notice them less and less as time goes on. Maybe make an appt. with a therapist, most PPO insurances will help with that. I wouldn't suggest using alcohol or any other substances to mask the pain it will only be a temporary fix. Try getting to the gym or go for a bike ride etc. That might help relax your nerves. Keep your head up and keep being strong you got this! Time heals
Lostinutah
Lostinutah
I am no doctor and I don't play one on TV but it almost sounds like you might be bipolar. Yeah we all go through the UPS and downs but it sounds like you are going from one extreme to another. I am not bipolar but my ex is amongst other things. It's almost impossible to be in a relationship if you are. If I were you I would get checked out.
jeanbean23
jeanbean23
Hey, if you feel like your emotions are really intense to a point that they are consuming you on the inside, it may be good for you to seek out therapy. I feel very similar to what you've described (going from crying endlessly and wanting to kill myself, to being crazily angry the next moment, and then being totally fine) and later I got diagnosed with BPD. But don't take it from me personally... on the chance that it is a disorder, you need to be properly diagnosed so that you get the proper treatment.

All that aside, I am very sorry for what you are going through and I really do hope you feel better soon.
Mekia41
Mekia41
Those are exactly the feelings that I am having now I'm mad I'm sad I'm crying I just don't know what to do at this point so I totally understand how you are feeling
Fortitude18
Fortitude18
I don't know why you broke up, presumably because of infidelity. I have learned to understand that emotional states are temporary and transient. It helps me to realize this because when I feel really awful, I just observe it, how i feels, and then soon, it diminishes or even fully goes away. That is good to know so when you are feeling bad you know it won't last forever. They say over time the waves of sadness get better. I am still in the thick of it myself. Be strong my friend.
TheGrassIsGreener1993
TheGrassIsGreener1993
Stop re-living the pain of the breakup every day, once is enough. After you've gotten through the emotions and really process everything, you are going to have to cut yourself off at some point and direct your mind out of this because you're going down to a place you dont want to go to. Face that it's over and you lost someone you love. Dont lose yourself too. Best wishes my man, you're gonna br strong.
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