OK, so.

I have always been very, very, I don't know how to describe it. I never really cared - if the person I loved was a girl too, why should I? I've always thought that love is a bigger thing than gender, that gender shouldn't get in the way of myself. However, I never called myself bisexual.

But lately (like, yesterday) I was wondering about who I was, and I thought, am I straight?

A few things that make me think I am also attracted to girls is that I find yuri amazing, it really makes me feel happy, I think girls can be beautiful, and I felt incredibly awkward when a girl (a friend of mine) asked me out, but not because of that, but because when I turned her down (not because she's a girl) my friend was shocked and she found it hilarious.

'How could she think that? Why'd she do that? I mean, you're straight!' And I just had this feeling in my guts, like my body was telling me, 'It's not that, no, not that.'

Anyway, another thing: when I started wondering if I was actually, properly, straight, I took a quiz online (yes, I know online quizzes are not reliable) and as I was answering the questions I was just thinking, 'wow, I'm bi, aren't I, I'm bi, I'm bi.'

And as I was falling asleep I felt so calm. I wasn't ashamed of myself, of course not, and my parents and friends are supportive, so I knew I could tell them and not be turned away, although it would probably be a bit awkward.

And then today I stressed. Oh my God, I stressed so bad. Because I know that there must - there has to be - a difference between being able to appreciate a girl's beauty and wanting to be with one.

Sorry it dragged on a bit. But, I need advice. I'd really appreciate it if you contributed, although please refrain from saying things like I'm too young to know for sure. x